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新年快乐！

2012-01-23T15:12:00.003+08:00

It's the lunar new year today.

It's the time where families come together, work together, and spend time together.

I had this funny dream this morning that I had to prepare sup ekor (ox tail soup) to bring to my uncle's house for new years... and oh, my uncle's vegetarian btw :P

At my uncle's place, my siblings and I happily talked about our chinese zodiac. I'm a wood rat, while most of my peers are ox (just because I happened to be born before Chinese New Year that year, so my zodiac is similar to those born in 1984). You can find your zodiac here.

"Overall, Rats are full of energy, talkative and charming but they have a tendency to become aggressive."

Wahahahaha! No wonder I started dancing so much.

Happy Chinese New Year Everyone! :)

Now if only the first quarter isn't the busiest in my office, and in 2012 in particular... I so could've taken 10 days off, resulting in 3 weeks off due to the number of public holidays that happened to lump around this period. There's Chinese New Year, there's Federal Territory Day, there's the Prophet's Birthday and Thaipusam!!

Updated wishlist

2012-01-19T00:04:00.002+08:00

Only while editing it did I realise it's been a loooong while since I last updated it :o Striking out a lot of the current items pretty much meant that I've acquired a lot of things that I wanted in the past year :D

YAY!

Time to put stuff to get in 2012 :D

The forgetful me

2012-01-18T23:27:00.002+08:00

I often do my thinking of things in general... such as my life, my work, my priorities, anything, while driving. And this is normally when I'm driving home, or the way to work. It's sometimes scary how one can drive autopilot to and fro from home and office :S

Anyway, there has been many occasions where I tell myself, I should blog what I was thinking... But obviously.. it didn't happen :P Normally by the time I reach home, I just forget. I forgot that I wanted to blog, and I forget what I wanted to blog about.

It's like how we forget what we dreamed after we wake up in the morning...

Anyway, I'm gonna try for a 2012 resolution: blog more! even if it's just one para, one line, whatever :)

Long ago, I could never type without looking at the keyboard

2011-12-12T23:31:00.000+08:00

Now at my 3rd try.. :D

Visit the Typing Test and try!

Thanks to Jules :P

Talent Hub: La Senza Pin-Up store launch performance

2011-11-11T23:35:00.000+08:00

Talent Hub: La Senza Pin-Up store launch performance: La Senza launched their latest Pin-Up concept store in One Utama on 3rd November 2011. Our 20 dancers performed an upbeat and exciting dance...

I choose you, Pikachu!

2011-11-11T22:47:00.003+08:00

Say hello to Pikachu!

Bright, loud, and full of power!

I got this SE 1.5 Myvi towards the end of September and I'm loving it. Sure it took a bit of getting used to. I'm still working on the handling of the car, but at least, after her first service, she doesn't guzzle as much petrol anymore. I used to have to refill her tank within a week. But now it's definitely over.

It's funny switching from a 1k cc engine to this 1.5. The change in fuel consumption is very very obvious, and bear in mind that I've been driving my old red kelisa for 8 years before I got Pikachu.

The story of getting the Myvi:
When the new Myvi 1.3 was launched back in June, I placed an order for the sleek purple Myvi elegance. I wasn't too impressed with the exterior facelift, however, I was enchanted by the new interior design. Prior to this, I never had a GPS device, so I was bent to get the built in navigation system on the Myvi, which led me to the Elegance.

A couple of months passed, and no news on the delivery of the purple Elegance. Then they launched the 1.5. After being convinced to switch to the 1.5, I requested for the purple one again, or silver, whichever comes faster. Within a week, I received a call that my car was ready to be delivered. Since I sorta requested purple or silver, I asked what colour this one was. Imagine my surprise when I was told that it's yellow. Now, don't get me wrong, I don't hate yellow, and I think the yellow is a beautiful shade, and it really stands out on the car. But that's also the thing.. I didn't quite want to stand out. The colour is loud, and I didn't feel like being so obvious that I just got a new car.

I had like, two-three days to decide whether to take the yellow or not. Upon hearing several advices, I went with it since it's already available, wherelse there's no telling when the purple SE 1.5 will ever emerge. And here comes Pikachu!

The name Pikachu was suggested by Steven. People used to ask when I was gonna get my Barney (during the time I was expecting the purple).

I do know that there has been more purple Myvis out there now, but I'm glad I got my Pikachu. No regrets there :)

The Games I Play Lately

2011-09-24T21:46:00.002+08:00

Ramadan and Raya came and left. If you were on my facebook, you'd probably know that Steven came by Malaysia to celebrate one of the most festive seasons in Malaysia :) I seriously believe men in 'baju melayu' look sooooo hot and dashing!

And now he's back home :( Can't wait till the next meet. But I don't know when yet... :(

Anyway, just wanna share some of the games I've been playing on and off recently. Some iPhone games is listed here as well, but not all.. there's too many. lol! But I say, iphone apps make waiting sooo much more bearable now.

Online

Dragon Saga: To me it's something between Maplestory and WoW. Lag is not bad, I probably have much better connection if I ever upgrade to Unifi. Steven found this game while looking for a game that both of us could play, since I can't play Maplestory anymore :( Stupid region block.
Transformice: It's a simple game, but sooo entertaining. It's short 2-3 min rounds makes it a good time filler. But it's hard to get off it as well, making me procrastinate at times XD
Epicmafia: Realtime mafia/"werewolf". Practise ~~lying~~ acting skills here.

Iphone

Plants vs Zombies: Used to play this a bit, till I got all the achievements. But now it's updated with tonnes of mini games and more achievements, it goes back to the main list :D
Monopoly: On of my fav time fillers.
Bakery Story: Cuz the food looks yum. Some colleagues were playing this, and now so am I :3

That's all I can think for now. Too many? I dunno :o *thinks about the outdoor activities I'm up to as well....*

Snippets

2011-08-08T23:42:00.003+08:00

When there's more than two ways to look at something, those who take things negatively all the time, will be unhappy all the time.

Little pleasant surprises are the best.

The waiting game is always the horror.

Sometimes, you just have to be really thick skinned.

One should sometimes be selfish to be unselfish to others.

Some things are hard to explain... and it's harder when no one's listening.

Don't judge others.. you have no idea what they've been through.

I still can't figure out, if emotions is a good or bad thing...

I'd be totally pissed if someone tells me to give up my passion...

Some say, it's the thought that counts. I believe, it's the intention that matters.

I love cats...

How do you stop yourself crying at places where you're not supposed to cry?

How do you focus when your mind is weighed down by the troubles of your love?

When will you seek to understand?

I still feel like I need a second job.......... hmmmm.....

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The bittersweet Monday

2011-07-04T22:51:00.003+08:00

The bitter: Monday blues. Nothing new. It was generally okay at work, with a bit of drama and wtf moments. There's still a bit of frustration of trying to pick up ppl's work that's in many many pieces. I do learn a lot still through that, but my slowness is not something I'm happy with at the moment.

The sweet: It's travel time again soon. A bit of of a bitter part is that I still have so much to do and I've not yet packed. As at now (near 11 pm) I just took down my big luggage from on top of the cupboard. I wonder if I can just travel with an empty back, come back with a full one ;D

Funny or sad thing, I'm not sure, but every time I blog the same old phrase comes to mind all the time. Time flies. This time it feels like it hasn't been that long since I last traveled. And here I am (albeit blogging instead of packing) packing my bags again.

Here's hoping for a safe, good and fruitful trip :) Steven's away to Scotland as well I think. Last I heard, he just arrived in England.

Let's do this!

Two Birthdays and a Car

2011-06-21T08:04:00.002+08:00

Getting a car for a birthday is like a dream, isn't it?

Two birthdays passed since the last post, and I was "slightly" occupied with preparing for them. No, there was no car involved in any birthday gifts or so. They, my mum and bro, are already driving bigger cars than myself ;P

Anyway, I've been hunting for a new car, since my Kelisa has started to show many signs of aging. I still love my Kelisa. But I do know when it's time to let go...

I shortlisted some cars that are compact/hatchback as I am not keen into driving a much bigger car, not even the Honda City.

Suzuki Swift: I've longed for that car since I first saw it. I still do. But my wallet and monthly expenses disagree with my choice, and so I had to let it go... for now.
Hyundai Getz: Something about its back, I don't like.
Kia Picanto: A very good friend told me, avoid Kia cars at all cost. If it weren't for that advise, I was really leaning towards this cutie.
Honda Jazz: Another beauty that would break my wallet.
Perodua MyVi: The new one, not the old. While I'm not that impressed with the new exterior design, I am enthralled by its interior. I don't know why, I just am. :P The purple is a beaut as well. My issue with this car is the new back which looks like a bigger Viva, and I had a bit of ego which didn't want to drive a car so common. So I tell myself, while I'm driving it, I'll be inside, not outside. So the interior matters more. It's gentle to my budget as well.

So MyVi it is. I now just hope I get to book one from the first batch (only 8000 units, launched 16 June)

Total Blur Moment of the Day

2011-06-09T08:27:00.002+08:00

And it's only 8.25 AM. Getting onto the Penchala Link, I realised that my office tag wasn't hanging on the mirror in the car. I was like dammit, I'd have to take the visitor's pass and pay meals with cash. (The night before, my pass was kept in my gym bag as I had dance class after work)

I pondered whether I require anything from my cabinet today, as the keys are with the pass. Then as I pulled into the office parking lot, again, dammit, I do need something from my cabinet. Therefore, I have to at least go back home during lunch hour to pick up my keys (pass).

It was only when I got out of the car I realised.. I've been wearing my tag the whole time. When did I put it on? Where was it? Until now, I haven't got a clue.

I've been better.

2011-06-02T00:00:00.002+08:00

It hasn't been a week since I got so uptight.

And honestly when people ask me if I'm ok now, I don't know actually. Am I ok? How do I tell if I'm ok? I'm still my usual chatty self, but I don't know if I'm ok.

Sometimes, I also wonder if I'm in denial. If I really am trying to convince myself that I'm making the right decision. Actually, I may not be, and there may be consequences, right? But what's life without taking risks and making decisions?

Things will suck, and it's easy to blow up and complain about it. It's harder to fix it. It's hard, but it's possible. That's the challenge.

Why do we shout?

2011-05-31T20:48:00.002+08:00

A good friend and colleague of mine shared a story via e-mail, which is almost like this story below. (The difference was that in his story, it was a 'guru' rather than a 'saint'). I don't know where the story originated, but it's nice anyway.

A saint asked his disciples, ‘Why do we shout in anger? Why do people shout at each other when they are upset?’
Disciples thought for a while, one of them said, ‘Because we lose our calm, we shout for that.’
‘But, why to shout when the other person is just next to you?’ asked the saint. ‘Isn’t it possible to speak to him or her with a soft voice? Why do you shout at a person when you’re angry?’
Disciples gave some other answers but none satisfied the saint.
Finally he explained, ‘When two people are angry at each other, their hearts distance a lot. To cover that distance they must shout to be able to hear each other. The angrier they are, the stronger they will have to shout to hear each other through that great distance.’

Then the saint asked, ‘What happens when two people are in love with each other? They don’t shout at each other but talk softly, why? Because their hearts are very close. The distance between them is very small…’

The saint continued, ‘When they love each other even more, what happens?
They do not speak, only whisper and they get even closer to each other in their love. Finally they even need not whisper, they only look at each other and that’s all. That is how close two people are when they love each other.’

MORAL: When you argue do not let your hearts get distant, do not say words that distance each other more, else there will come a day when the distance is so great that you will not find the path to return.

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My first thought about why I shout when I'm angry, was because I felt like the other didn't listen. And I guess when you associate the scenario of someone not hearing you, you shout louder in hopes they will listen.

I think it applies the same for online chatting. You start using CAPS LOCK because you feel the other person is not reading what you're typing.

Caturday

2011-05-28T17:13:00.000+08:00

-taken from Li Li's blog

I need anger management.

2011-05-27T22:35:00.007+08:00

Counseling, theraphy, whatever.

At least after that first line, I've mellowed down a bit.

Earlier my thoughts were jumbled up between stuff that I want to scream out, and stupid stuff nobody should ever think of.

Here's the jumbled 'mind':

Kick the door. Slam the car. Break something. Cry. I never listen to you. We never listen to you. If you say you can only do things when you're around, it's like I may as well find someone here. If you want to give and expect something in return, please don't. Run away from home. Can't run away from problems. Playing games make you forget the problems. You seem to forget how cranky you used to be after work, and you expect me to be so energized after? Why are you making it so hard? You don't understand, you think you know me but you don't. Why can't you do things yourself?? There's no initiative anywhere. Just because YOU like to snoop around, doesn't mean everyone else does. You always feel like there's eyes watching you. You have double standards. You don't try enough. There's always limitations. You're so into showing off to other people. What happened to simplicity, moderation and humility? Break something, break something now. Curl up in a corner, forget everyone else. Lose everyone else. Kick it. Alone, stay alone. DON'T make me choose. I need to talk to someone. I need to see someone. I have noone to talk to. NOBODY can comfort me. Nobody cares. They say they do. But they just want to control you. I'm stupid. So what if I am. You've been rude, that is not cool and I've lost a lot of respect for you. It's all about pleasing you, you don't care how I feel, how I felt. You're the one who left me to be like this and you're still continuing to do it. Because you weren't around I had to be there. Because you won't listen I had to. Who listens to me? You think I have so much money?? JUST STOP with that double standards. You raised me up to follow the rules and now you keep prodding me to break them. You won't listen. You're too stubborn with your damn narrow mindedness to push beyond. You're stuck in a room even when there's a door. It's always about what you can't do, and exerting your limitations. It's ALWAYS about what you can't do. How could you say things like that, I've never thought you to be that narrow minded. I'm so not surprised you had to find others to back you up. YOU DON'T care about my needs. I'M SURE you will always say that you care, BUT IF YOU REALLY DO I won't feel damn angry and fucked up. MAYBE I am meant to be alone. You want to be like all the people around you, why can't you just appreciate what you have? WHAT'S with all these clutter? Is it THAT HARD to reply? WHY DO YOU BOTHER? To pretend that you care? Why are you so easily influenced by peer pressure? Why are you so embarrassed by us? If you can't fulfill my needs regardless where you are, what's the point of the relationship in the first place? I like skirts. Don't freakin' forget and drop things like a hot potato. Screw it, I don't know what 'family' means. What happened to respect and diversity? Compromise? You CAN'T always get what you want. Can I smash this partition? Why so fancy? Why is it you care so much what other say about you, but not so much what we say about you? Do they really care for you? Why don't they ever visit you?

I need help. AND at this rate, I'm NOT gonna get any. Negative remarks will be ignored.

What can I write in 10 minutes?

2011-05-07T13:02:00.003+08:00

I have roughly ten minute before I head out and meet up with Li Li :) It's been a while since we sat and chat, tho today is a little different.

She's going for her first manicure and pedicure :D Hopefully this may help curb a lil' bad habit of hers ;)

The weather this week has been quite bleh. It was rather rainy, like, raining the whole day for the first half of the week. Then beginning Thursday, it's hot. It's just so so hot. Barely any clouds in the sky.

Possibly because of the weather, I started feeling a little 'under the weather'. It started with some itchy/sore/dry throat, and non stop sneezing. Forcing myself to drink a lil' more than usual seems to help prevent any further sickness. Now I'm just headache-y. But that may have been attributed to other things.

Tomorrow's spa session with the mummy should also help me to relax. Everything's been so stressful lately, and there seem to be no refuge anywhere or with anyone. But I won't elaborate on that here, because it's private :P But still, spa is nice... especially when it's cheap :) (tmr's deal only costs RM36 per person!) Thank you group discount sites :)

Now that it's May.. I'm not sure what to look forward to next, besides the above and some work to do at home.

That's ten minutes.

(Including blank moments)

Insert Title Here before it keeps changing

2011-03-27T13:54:00.003+08:00

There's a bunch of things I'd like to write about.

But when I sit at the laptop to write about it, I get distracted.

There are too many other things I wanna do at the same time. Likewise when I'm sitting at the PC.

Random Lulz

2011-02-24T22:51:00.002+08:00

Today's Steven's birthday. Happy Birthday :*

In my haste this morning to send him an e-card, I accidentally sent it to the wrong e-mail. Goodness knows if that e-mail address exists.. xD But I heard gmail doesn't allow underscores, so I may be safe from embarrassment :D

Just two weeks ago I celebrated my birthday. ^^ I get younger each year :D

What can I get for RM20 at most?

2011-01-17T23:17:00.002+08:00

Almost a month after Christmas, my department's having a secret santa thingy with presents loosely capped at RM20.

Currently, I've no idea what to buy.

I also have no idea what to put on my wishlist that is within RM20.

So after pondering for a bit, I think I found some items that I want that may be below RM20. But I still don't know what to get for my recipient........

I need ideas!

Gearing Up!

2010-12-21T19:24:00.003+08:00

2010 is coming to and end, and towards the end of the year, I've been doing a loooot of planning! And new ventures too.

Taking up dance again, but letting go for latin/ballroom so that I do not have to depend on a partner
Hopefully taking Mandarin classes again.. if time and budget permits
Squash/badminton when I can
Sailing as usual. But I think I'm gonna be less competitive with this..
Traveling!

And work's going on higher gear now. Hopefully next year is a lot more fruitful than this. At least, I know life will be ;)

I know you still check on this rather often

2010-12-13T22:43:00.000+08:00

But sorry I haven't been updating much

Love you tho :*

Happy Halloween!

2010-10-31T15:22:00.003+08:00

A month rushed by and all sorts of things happened.

Let me start with a summary:

In office: Switched portfolios. To a certain point, it's like getting a new job. It somewhat feels like I'm starting from scratch, except that I know where the folders are :P
In sailing: I went for and secured fifth position with Team RSYC at the Malaysian Match Racing Champtionship 2010 in Kuala Terengganu. Being a crew is rather exciting xP
In life: I'm feeling so fickle. At times I'm longing for someone beside me. At times I feel like I should appreciate some alone time.

In office: It's somewhat like a rollercoaster ride in the dark, not knowing what's gonna hit you next. Just when you're settling down and bracing for a turn, you get a drop :P But I'm not gonna elaborate on how I feel about it. I've ranted enough about it to some people :3 I do know Monday's gonna be a headache tho.

In sailing: 2010 sailing season is already over, and it's only October. But it ends around this time anyway due to the Raja Muda Selangor International Regatta being held in November. I still want to sail tho, hopefully will do some dinghy sailing :)

In life: I like how I'm spending time alone today, except for having lunch with some family members (aunts & cousins). It's not often I get this alone time, and having this opportunity allows me to focus on things related to me. Like my laundry, cleaning my room, sorting out documents and such.

Oh that reminds me, I have some research to do by tonight @.@

To Bangkok and Back

2010-09-26T16:43:00.003+08:00

Last weekend, I participated in the inter central bank games in Bangkok. The last time I visited Bangkok, was when my big brother was sailing the Optimist in Pattaya... (Optimist sailing is only for 15 year olds and younger, that's how long ago it was)

A bunch of pics have been posted up on facebook, and I'll just leave it as that. Irene took this awesome picture on the bus tho: :D

We placed second overall, and in all games too, except squash who got first! Congrats guys! ^^

Bangkok, is seriously an awesome place to shop!

Anyway, I've been meaning to post stuff about life priorities, but I think I better not :P

Instead, I'm gonna update my shop list ^_^

Ps. The new ipod nano is suuuuper cute *_*

Neighbours

2010-09-03T21:56:00.002+08:00

Random: I've been meaning to blog here for a while, but when I have the blogger window open, I become clueless. When that happened again today during lunch hour, I ended up reading Nan's blog which I find superb with her command of English and the way she writes. Thanks Nan! :D I really really enjoyed it!

How many people down the street from your house, do you actually know? How often have you invited them over for tea, or hang out together from time to time?

If those questions were asked now, it would probably be 'very rarely' or 'never'.

But if you asked me when I was younger than 11 years old, I'd say 'all the time'.

Back in my childhood neighbourhood of Bukit Damansara, we pretty much knew the people left, right, front, back and several houses away. We often hang out and play. Maybe it was because we were young and carefree?

Yet still, after I moved to PJ at the age of 11, I barely knew the people who lived in this multi storey complex. And since then, I've moved from condo to condo, even as a university student, I stayed in some student apartment in Sydney. But Sydney was good :D We knew a lot of neighbours and hung out together at times.

What is a neighbourhood lately? I'm honestly ashamed at times that I don't know my neighbour well enough. I can only tell which car is theirs, and what time they usually leave for work.. xD

Hopefully this year would change things. :) I'm trying.

So sick of being sick

2010-08-31T09:23:00.002+08:00

Pretty much self-explanatory. I'm so tired, so exhausted. Yet I can't even rest decently.

Losing You. Slowly but surely.

2010-08-20T22:08:00.003+08:00

Warning: emo post

I've watched you from afar. As you go further away. Your surroundings have changed. But I am no longer there.

What has happened?

The language you speak, is now foreign.
The radio channel you're listening to, is different.
There's somebody else in my seat.

I feel like I've lost you.

I tried to reach out, but your hand's not there.
I cried out, but you didn't hear me.
I teared, but you didn't notice.

My voice is gone.

Dear Diary,

2010-08-13T20:50:00.002+08:00

It seems unbelievable. I left for an 18 day trip. It felt like I was away for a month.

It was a lovely trip, every single moment was spent to its best. Aside from a longer stay, I felt like nothing could be better. :) There was a good feeling of satisfaction there.

I then attended a course after two days back at work. But beginning of that course, I started to become sick. That gave me another two days of medical leave as I was suspected of dengue. Thankfully, it was negative, but I was nevertheless punctured twice to get blood out of me :P

On the road to recovery, the fasting month has arrived. I'm not 100% recovered yet, so all these raya goodies are off limits ;_; Can't wait till I can savour them :D yummmm

This week was actually the first full week back in office. And I'm glaaaad that's over!

Wow, hey, it's 4th of July already?

2010-07-04T22:42:00.002+08:00

And again, time flew. I just got back from Langkawi today after a department's Family Day 2010. While I'm unpacking my stuff, I'm packing at the same time for my trip to Belgium this coming Saturday.

Oh gosh.. There's so much to do within this week! (Including Laundry :p)

and sending car to P16..

and exchanging money..

etc.

WHEEEE!!!

Two Weekends, Two Birthdays

2010-06-19T23:10:00.002+08:00

Mum celebrated her birthday on Friday the 11th. Rudy celebrated his birthday today :)

There are times I do miss doing all sorts of planning for birthdays or any other events.

Yet, there are times, I'm tired of doing the planning all the time.

My next trip to Belgium, I'm barely planning it :D Regardless, ideas anyone?

When it rains

2010-06-14T21:28:00.002+08:00

It pours.

Sudah jatuh, ditimpa tangga.

Shit happens. There will be times when many bad things happen at the same time. I may very well lost 'my love' yesterday, and as sad as I am about it, I somehow feel blessed in some ways. It feels like there's some sort of blessing in disguise, but I do not know it yet. I do wonder how I can feel rather optimistic like that while being pessimistic about the way things happened at the same time.

I am sad. But I tell myself, things can't really get any worse than they are, right? If it does, so what.. :P Shit happens.

At least, there's definitely good things to look forward to soon :)

Make it stop!

2010-06-04T08:26:00.001+08:00

Was looking through baby-themed lolcats when I found an old favourite which I believe I've not posted here yet :D

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Avoiding Responsibility

2010-05-30T20:49:00.003+08:00

Random: funny so far the last three posts including today occurs on a day I filled up my car with petrol. I wonder if the sound of petrol entering my car fuel tank and the quiet sound of money going with it prompts me to write.

Responsibility. What a BIG word! Literally. So much can be said about this. But I'm not really a big fan of looong winding po'sts, so I'm just gonna write about how I am afraid to take on responsibility in a type of situation.

Referrals.

When I refer someone to something, I always worry about how the people involved feel. Like today I got two friends to sail with Jeff, and I can't help wondering if they're happy with today's sailing, and if Jeff's happy having the two on board.

If I refer some people, to a massage centre that I like, they may not like it! And if that happens, I'd feel responsible for them being unhappy.

Referring someone to the office?

Referring a friend to another friend?

These situations do exist, though with my tendency to worry, I'm often pessimistic with the outcome.

As time goes by, I'm trying to care less about things. I wonder how that may affect my responsible taking. But hey, like dad once said, there will be times when things don't go according to plan. Tough. Move on. :)

Let's be optimistic!

I'm Still At Home.. o.O

2010-05-21T23:48:00.004+08:00

When I'm supposed to be in Pattaya right now!

Oh wells. ICBG got postponed on Monday. Only now I'm able to say something about it after we've all cooled down a bit at the frustration (not about not being able to go, but more so that we have to train much more till goodness knows when)

I can't remember much on what happened the week before, aside from daily training and sailing on the weekend. We managed first in the first series :D As for the platu series.. I'm kinda using it as a teaching/recruiting platform.. one at a time ;) Also, I bought Simcity on my iPhone.. Love it love it love it! Cost about 9.5 ringgit only! (For a game like that!). Sims 3 on my wishlist.. haha. No.. not planning to jailbreak. :p

This week.. a lil crazy. Sorting out the team a bit, training and stuff. Cheques, budget, rules, etc. etc. eek! That's not so much the crazy part tho. Just the part getting a bit sick, and not because I just took the h1n1 jab/vaccine, whatever you call it. It may seem that I throw up easily and stuff cuz my tummy's full of wind o.o Caused by eating too fast xD So trying to slow down my eating! But the sucky part was going to the panel clinic, since HR rejected my claims when I went to my family doctor -.- I waited about an hour, while I was only second in line, but the doctor had to dress up someone (what are nurses for?) and that took ages. Then the patient in line before me took ages. Then I took less than five minutes. I got prescribed stuff that I had over a month ago. I just wanna cure what's causing all this, not just the symptoms x.x So I just went to the pharmacy instead and became my own doctor.. :p haha, and feeling much better already. (thanks to googled stuff too!)

Anyhow, 7 more weeks to my big trip the 2nd! :D

The preparation for Pattaya

2010-05-08T18:39:00.002+08:00

In two weeks, I'll be heading off to Pattaya, Thailand for the Inter-Central Bank Games. It would be my first time going for this annual games, participated by four countries: Malaysia, Singapore, Thailand and Indonesia.

There's 5 games each year, including one indoor/board game, and this year, it's Chess ^_^

I feel lucky that I'll be surrounded by many familiar people including April, Jas and Rozai. I can imagine that it would be a blast!

Tho part of the preparation, is to learn up some kind of cultural dance to perform there later :S

My New Love

2010-05-04T21:15:00.004+08:00

This post is rather overdue, but better late than never, right? ;)

Just over two weeks ago, 17 April to be precise, I found my new love.

My new love accompanies me wherever and whenever, with no complaints at all, and is willing to hear mine and entertain me whenever I ask for it.
It's also gonna make me live on instant noodles only for the rest of the year :P (jk!)
Anyhow, it did take me a while to decide, and to some point, I can't really figure out why I went for it. Even after I made my decision, I pondered a while thinking if I had made the right decision.

I think I did :D

Finally I'm able to enjoy the same love many others are enjoying at this moment ^_^

Lemme introduce "my new love~":

I'm such a sucker for gadgets at times... xP

Sure it took a big bite off my paycheck tho o.O

At what age should one get married?

2010-05-02T20:41:00.002+08:00

With lots of weddings and tying the knot happening here and there, often the topic of 'right age' to get married pops up. I usually say, that there is no real "appropriate age" to get married, especially when you're surrounded by different traditions :P

Through observation, though not necessarily accurate, I often see the Chinese getting married in their late twenties or thirties. Or basically a lot more mature before getting married. (Perhaps also I was a lot younger then)

On the other hand, the Malays often get married in their early 20s, and by this I mean the women more than the man (whom usually settles down mid-late 20s).

And I'm of mixed parentage :P I know my mum would go wide-eyed if I mention marriage to her. Heck, even getting into a relationship makes her brows rise, full in query.

Then today I stumbled upon this article on MSN Today.

Eek, I'm 25!

Is the trend building up?

2010-04-27T21:02:00.002+08:00

I remember someone (who was relatively a lot older than me) told me once. At around my age, we go about attending weddings or parties of newborns. Wherelse, people her age go around attending funerals.

And yet another person I knew since young has passed on. Sudden like the last? Perhaps so, but in entirely different circumstances. This time from a motor accident (Tho the actual cause may be surgery complications). The date of departure was yesterday, exactly a month after the passing of my aunt.

Often I'm reminded that my life here is a gift. And anytime, it may just disappear. All of us assume that it will last a very very long time. How safe is that assumption? But to be fair, what else can you assume?

Then come the quotes. Live today like there's no tomorrow, and such.

Nevertheless, life again, goes on. But it is always changing, no matter how much we resist naturally. Does embracing and adapting to change makes one live a happy life?

Axis Of Awesome - 4 Four Chord Song with song titles

2010-04-24T21:22:00.001+08:00

Thanks Steven for sharing! XD

Questions and Painful Legs

2010-04-18T20:25:00.002+08:00

*how was hockey?

Despite the annoying delay of all the matches by 40 minutes, and the fact that I'm so unfit, I did not faint on the field, and I really enjoyed the game. We came out 3rd out of 3 teams, but I had a lot of fun. I know I'd do it again next year.

Why did I take it up? I remembered holding the hockey stick once at school, and tried to stop a ball and hit it away. I quite liked that feeling. But never had the chance. And here, the girls team did not have enough players to even make a full field team. That's where I come in.

*how was the party?

The hockey matches delay and the captain's insisting on me staying for the last game (which weren't ours), caused all my plans on Saturday to go whacky. So doing all sorts of stuff in between, for the sake of getting things done at a cheaper 'price', totally wore me out before the party.

Because of doing errands, I caused April (who carpooled with me) and myself to be late for the dance class (part of the hen party). Thankfully, the trainer was late too, due to a flat tyre. We danced to "Single Ladies" by Beyonce, I've the video.. not sure if I'll upload it.. hmm ;o

Then rushed to Azura's place to shower and change for the dinner. I was famished by then, cuz of the hockey, I kinda missed lunch.

Dinner was ok, just thought my portion was a bit small, even tho it was one of the more expensive stuff on the menu. I was famished okay.. The place didn't really do much dancing.. But I was fine with that, I'm just too tired by night time.

*how was sailing?

Sailing started off ok, after a rough bump with arrangements. Imagine trying to arrange time and transport and stuff in the party while there's loud music and lots of people chatting around you. I felt a bit bad being antisocial.

The hectic part partially comes because I was taking Anuar sailing as well. Besides him getting back into sailing, he has to complete his CAS stuff for his International Baccalaureate by collecting more Activity hours. I couldn't confirm till that night if he had a spot on the boat as it was subjected to the owner's approval...

Then sailing itself was ok, we managed first after a long 1.5 hr race, but only fared 2nd in the 2nd race. At least it was a much shorter race back to the club.

Hurriedly ate some snacks, then drove back, stopping by at KFC for some dinner.

And so here I am, back at home, preparing for work and other things.

What the heck am I doing?

2010-04-15T19:48:00.002+08:00

I remember giving up a bunch of stuff. On the basis that I lack time, now that I've started working.

And here I am, trying out and being committed to new stuff. Well, and some old stuff too.

Like this week,

Monday - Squash
Tuesday - Chess
Wednesday - Squash
Thursday - Chess (which I kinda skipped today)
Friday - Chess
Saturday - Hockey & Hen Party
Sunday - Sailing

Then there's still next week
Monday - Chess

And I'm too tired now to think beyond that. :P

Then again, I realised today, that some of the activities I've given up upon, lacked one important factor: friends

Is it peer pressure? I don't think so. I do admit I do enjoy these activities. And often I'm envious of some people in my department who seem to be doing twice the stuff I'm doing. Some with families too! How does one juggle the time? How much sleep do they get? o.O

Maybe if I had a cat! I'd be compelled to go home earlier :D

Still, I'm questioning myself: Lots of people say my health issues is due to stress. Are all these activities relief the stress, or add to it?

Back to the [Chess] Board

2010-04-05T21:28:00.003+08:00

After 8 years since the last competition I joined for chess, I'm back in it :o Really one of the things I love about working in the Bank is the activeness in sports and other activities. This year I'm hoping to be selected as one of the 3 girls going to the Inter-Central Bank Games (ICBG) in May. I hope I could pick up the skills again and stuff. My colleague says a bit of practice and training would do me lots of good. After many rounds of chess since last month, I'd ask, why did I ever leave this game again? (Tho I do know the answer.. I started sailing again competitively XD)

At least, looking back at my past involving chess wasn't too hard. And I doubt that the rules for competition have changed much. I'm most glad to be able to find my old scorebooks o.O

It feels rather nostalgic to go through my old games. May give me an insight, to how I used to play last time. Now I just have to look for my chess board and pieces :P

I was such a kid when I played actively back then o.o

And I'm loving it! :D This calls for a new tag!

Love Mistakes

2010-04-05T00:25:00.002+08:00

Now I'm no guru, so I do enjoy reading from time to time articles from MSN's lifestyle section on the subject matter. I like to read these things and work out what's best for me, and what I can do better. Let me make it clear tho, while there are lots of positive advice, I don't necessarily agree with all. But that's rare too :)

The latest article I read, which was today, was on Love Mistakes and I was just looking at the 5 items mentioned. How true! There was so much stuff there so relatable, just the idea itself, not necessarily with the examples. And not necessarily from personal experience either. I'd so share more, but doing so may have to end up with me making this blog private :p

Three visits, one week

2010-04-04T15:00:00.004+08:00

Quick weekly update is me finally going to see the doctor for continuous nausea that's starting to get more frequent. After many throwing ups, I went to the doctor whom was very keen to believe that I was... well, what do you think of generally of women having nausea :p Anyways, after confirming that it's impossible unless with divine intervention, she changed my medication, in which I seem to be responding better to.

It's now been two days since I've stopped puking :) All that irritation to the throat has caused a sore throat and subsequently a flu :( And so I missed sailing today *cry*

Eek, work tomorrow.

Anyhow, I managed to at least celebrate April's bday yesterday with a bunch of friends :) Watched Clash of the Titans on Gold Class, and now enjoying a series of Glee thanks to her ^^ I must say, I'm blessed to be around friends like her :) Hoping all the best and goodness for the years ahead, and Happy Birthday! ^_^

Life goes on

2010-03-27T14:38:00.004+08:00

In the last 4 months, I've lost 3 relatives. Two to cancer, one to old age.

Some hits you harder than others, regardless the cause. Yesterday's loss was one of the harder ones.

Some things are unpredictable, life and reality can hit you at any random time. When that happens, choices have to be made. These choices will affect others. I used to worry about the consequences of my choices, but now I tend to believe the best of others. :)

I was definitely not prepared for yesterday. But at least, I believe I made the right choices. If there was a right choice or wrong choice in the first place :P

Anyhow, I marveled at the fact that the rest of the world is oblivious to what's happening to a little family, showing how relatively minute we are in this big world.

How can I ever be prepared? Regardless on how big or small chances are for tragedy to strike, the chance is still there. Would that be enough reason to get some things in life done fast?

I remember once participating in a Relay for Life back in UNSW, and if there was one nearby KL now, I'd definitely try to go for it. There's one coming in June, but it's in Penang. So those nearby there.. try going for it!

Screw the assumptions

2010-03-10T22:32:00.002+08:00

I can't be bothered to rethink stuff at times :P But anyhow, assumptions can be really dangerous, and should be treated with caution! With that, I won't elaborate further on my last post! :P

On the other hand, experiencing work is very life changing. One of the most challenging tasks for me, is prioritizing. Especially with many different stakeholders, I've gotta learn to understand the matters to attend to. And how to attend to them.

It's a very steep learning curve. I can only hope I'm forgiven for being darn slow :P

Seeing the world get darker from behind the office window, is certainly a weird feeling. To have most people still around, having dinner with you, also gives me a weird feeling. It's like, I've finally started to belong to the FS department.

Two steps at a time ^^ (or maybe 3)

The "Danger" of Assumptions

2010-03-07T10:29:00.003+08:00

Lately you may see me often asking many questions in a conversation. It may seem like dumb questions or rhetorical questions. I like to clarify better now. Because I've been experiencing all sorts of things go wrong because of assumptions. They may be small incidents, but still, it's no fun!

Once was the assumption that I was in P16 instead of Surian. Rudy was waiting for me in P16 lobby, while I was waiting at Surian lobby. I assumed he knew I was in Surian, while he assumed the other. Luckily we didn't miss our movie.

I had more examples, but I forgot them right now. tbc

see more Lolcats and funny pictures

Mah point~ don't assume!

Anger & Patience

2010-02-28T11:42:00.003+08:00

So much anger over this long weekend. Some for reasons unknown. What does one do when there's anger against most people around her?

Who can she rant to now?

How much longer to be patient?

When is it time to finally give up?

Where is the sanctuary..? Oh, I should know this one.

___________________________________________________

I'm surprised my arms feel ok after going for skytrex

So sad it's already Sunday, back to the office, where everything restarts, while work due last month is still there. It only gets harder?

Wait wut..

2010-02-25T21:23:00.002+08:00

It's the 25th already?? Where did time go?

Another long weekend (altho just 3 days) is here, and all sorts of things, I think, have been lined up.

Time does fly. But when you're really anticipating something months away, time doesn't fly fast enough.

二十五年，一个星期以后。。。

2010-02-16T20:23:00.003+08:00

The week went by quickly. So did the nice looong weekend :)

Chinese New Year was filled with fun and food. And there'll be more!

This year's birthday celebrations involved a lot of food. A scrumptious dinner with colleague friends, organised by Lol-prilz at Tony Romas, Midvalley - Gardens :D

by April Siow

Family took me to Halia, at Sime Darby Convention Centre, for an awesome BBQ Buffet! (sorry no pics of that!)

It was eat eat eat (no wonder I weigh 49 kgs now) for all of us. And since my sister-in-law and I share the same birthday, it has now become some sort of tradition to have a family dinner on the night of our birthday. Rather fun meeting up at the restaurant, greet-hugging her and saying Happy Birthday! and she'd do the same for me, and we'd laugh xD

Presents this year? (besides the OM NOM NOM) None, except for some e-cards, a card from mum, and a couple of bags from mum too ^^ On my birthday mum asked me if I prefer to go for a spa as a birthday treat or *something I can't remember what*. I initially chose Spa, but later told her I've intended to get a proper work/handbag since the one I've been loyally using for years (yes, that Reebok bag I've been using since UiTM days) has started to shown signs of wear and tear :(

So in the end, I opted for a bag for my birthday pressie :) And on the spur of the moment, mum decided to get me two! We bought the bags from Robinsons, The Gardens/Midvalley. :D

Since I did a bit of shopping yesterday too, time to cross out some stuff from my wishlist/shopping list ^_^

Ow ow ow, I forgot to mention, that I've bought my tickets to Belgium too! (exactly on my birthday too :D)

Yesterday

2010-02-10T21:45:00.001+08:00

I turned

25

It's only the beginning

2010-02-08T19:04:00.002+08:00

The graduation is over, but there's still lingering stuff about NEP going about. Things like thank you notes, recycle-able items, props and stuff is yet to be settled. At least, it has now taken less than 5% of my office time! :D

But that does not mean I'm shaking my legs a lot in office. There's still quite a lot to do, and I'm hoping to juggle things well. Work and off-work. I do wonder how to reason about not being that type that stays in the office morning to night. Not that I'm against it, and not to say I'm not passionate about my work. I'm just too passionate.. about too many things xD

Tho I'd like to be passionate about my work. Doing that makes me feel good with what it comes with: my earnings. Basically, I don't want to work because I have to. I want to work because I like to. But me running off from the office doesn't mean the other way. Like I said, there are other things I enjoy too!

Soon, my weekends will be dedicated to sailing again. Oh how I want to go further from where I am now. Besides that, other things I'd like to do is play squash, attempt to discipline myself to go gym again, and attempt to improve my Mandarin.

There are things that I've let go due to overstretching myself... one of them being dancing. :(

Oh well, it's still only the beginning! :)

(Btw, I haven't gotten any pics/vids from the actual grad night yet)

The Pioneers Changing

2010-01-31T20:53:00.005+08:00

I've disappeared from this blog for two weeks for one reason. Jan 28th, the first BNM Executive Programme officially graduated with a disco-themed dinner, hosted by DG Razif. My involvements include the Creative Team, as a performer and a scriptwriter (tho I only wrote the lyrics to the song "Change Do You Good" by Sheryl Crow, and heading the Awards Team where I prepared a 'special' award for each participant. Here's mine:

Checkout ze rehearsal photos~

And look, we have a rehearsal video too!

In the preparation of the awards, I learned about this spiffy photo programme called Photoscape from @p. :D That's why you see the photos a lil different now. Whee!

Hoping to get more photos of the dinner itself and more. It was such an experience, SO glad to be able to experience it :D

We are the pioneers!

Introducing two new additions to the family

2010-01-16T16:28:00.007+08:00

Here's SHCAMPER and CHEWMIL! :3

They're named by Rudy & Faizah, and the 'weird' spelling is contributed by 'cute talk' :)

Shcamper's the male orange tabby, estimated to be about 4 months old, adopted from Zoo Negara's vet clinic. They have a bunch of stray/abandoned cats and kittens there, looking for a new home!While Chewmil's a female adult black/grey tabby, no idea how old she is, adopted from SPCA where there's a lot more cats & dogs hoping to be adopted soon. Apparently Chewmil's been in there for quite long (like about a year?).

Here's Rudy looking pretty content ^_^

I want one too! :3

What's a fever without the cough and cold?

2010-01-10T21:58:00.002+08:00

What a way to start 2010!

On Wednesday, I started feeling the chills and feeling very uncomfortable in the office. My appetite's gone and I could hardly think. (Yes, I do think ok). I was supposed to have a meeting Wednesday afternoon, but at lunch time, I felt really nauseous, so I postponed the meet, took EL and went home just after lunch time.

I ended up having a temperature of 39 C / 102.2 F not long after I arrived home and rested in bed. Besides that, I was throwing up whatever I ate followed by a massive headache.

Pretty much the rest of Wednesday and the whole of Thursday was spent in bed. I visited the doctor Thursday morning whom says what I have may be attributed to stress. :P

Somehow managed to muster enough energy to go to the office on Friday o.O It was a busy day. The throwing up still happened, once at work, and many times after. But Friday was the day the diarrhoea began. Without the stomach pain.

Anyway, whatever it is, it's weird. Saturday was better, and I went out a bit. To fetch Schramper and Chumil! :D I'll introduce them later.

Sunday's good. Looks like no more throwing up today. Normal appetite's not back yet tho

2010 has come!

2010-01-01T13:52:00.002+08:00

A VERY HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010!!!

ALL THE BEST! FROM THIS YEAR AND BEYOND!

Lov,
Ayin

Going on low gear

2009-12-31T08:38:00.002+08:00

It's been a long time since I drove a manual car. But I do know that driving on low gear can get you going through almost any hill.

You won't go fast by staying in low gear, but you still get there. Wherelse being on fast gear all the time, going up a steep hill may just kill the engine, and you stop going further. Other times, you're fast.

This metaphor (if I remember using this term correctly), kinda represents the 'efficiencies' in life. Many places, countries, even, are switching to everything rapid. Instant. Take ISPs for an example. You can probably find more than half the Malaysian internet users complaining about how slow our ISPs are. Yet it's still a vast improvement from those dial-up times I can still remember clearly. How our phones give a funny noise and not-usable while we're online. I remember having to ask permission to go online since it blocks the phone for a while.

But things change. Things do change. It's all in a matter of time. We see how technology rapidly evolves. Tech changes are often so welcomed. Other changes, not.

In the end, what I was imagining, what if we just stop and take a breath of fresh air. What if we take a little stroll or a holiday and leave all the 'instants' behind?

And while I'm feeling a little 'nostalgic' here, it doesn't mean going back to how things were, is all fun and easy. I do thank goodness for the internet and stuff. I prefer to just type out what I'm looking for than heading to the library or an archive, manually searching for information. But hey, people can still survive! Not to say people aren't surviving now, but I feel that the pressures and stresses have built up exponentially high with the advancement of technology.

Timeliness is part of being efficient.

I'm not that great with typewriters. (Used it before in a previous employment)

Hit Counter

2009-12-28T09:45:00.004+08:00

Look Look on the right >>>>>

:D

Found this flag hit counter when checking out a link sent by mum.

It has somewhat brightened up my day today.

A Letter about Sydney

2009-12-24T00:34:00.002+08:00

Yesterday and today, a friend came to me talking about his intentions of visiting Australia. He requested some input on places of interest, and I briefly told him what I knew of places in Australia. But for Sydney, it's a special case. Sydney's like my second home. There's so much I could talk about Sydney. Here's what I wrote to him:

Ok! And about Sydney!

After staying there 2.5 years, there are still some places I'm yet to explore. (tho funnily i can't remember what i haven't explored there now) Ah yes..

Now of course, there's the Sydney Opera House and the Harbour Bridge. If you love sights and have some extra cash to spend, you may consider going for the Bridge Climb. You have to book a spot online, and rain or shine, you gotta climb! There are night climbs and sunset climbs too. I'm afraid of heights, so I didn't try! :p If you don't have the means to climb it, you can still walk on the bridge! There's pedestrian paths on the side, and the view is still pretty awesome! That's what I did, hehe!

There's this beautiful coastal walk I love, from Coogee Beach up to Bondi Beach. If you go really slow, it could take 3 hrs, if you brisk jog, about 1.5 hrs. At Coogee Beach, before the start of the walk, there's also a little rock pool you may wanna jump in. However, it may be cold due to winter, where the waters there are about 12-14 C. You pass many small bridges and places, and also a cemetery on top a cliff facing the sea! It's good to go in the morning, then have lunch at Bondi Beach, Sydney's most famous beach. Other popular beaches there include Manly Beach, located at North Sydney and Maroubra Beach. Around Manly Beach there are also walks like the coastal walk, but I've not tried it before (cuz I liked Coogee-Bondi and lived about 20 mins walk from Coogee). Annually they also have a sculpture by the sea somewhere along the Coogee-Bondi walk, but I checked this year's date and it's at the end of October :( There're also some popular beaches up north of Manly, forgot the name, but heard the sand there is best. Now, that's just beach :P

Sydney has... all sorts of food from everywhere. One rather popular place is the Fish Market. Everything there is like, super fresh. Should go in the morning as well, it gets rather crowded around 11 AM. Then there's those chocolate stores, japanese, korean, i don't know, Sydney's just super diverse. If you want western food like ribs and steak, you could try Hog's Breath and/or Hurricanes. Be sure to make reservations as they're usually pretty full. There's a 24hr place called Pancake on the Rocks, situated at the Rocks, near the Opera House. Ppl love going there too, and the line can be pretty long, but it's 24 hrs! That's just food...

(I'm rather skipping a lot of details :P)

Ah yes, for food, I forgot to mention, a short bus ride from Sydney town towards south, you can also have good fish and chips. The place is called La Perouse, and there's a few fish and chip places there.

Oh yea, I did not even manage to go up the skytower xD But anyways, in terms of places to visit, in town, people like to look at the Queen Victoria Building (QVB). It's a shopping place inside. Darling Harbour is also another place of attraction. Sydney Aquarium and wildlife centre is there, it's quite interesting, I went to the Aquarium at least twice. Across the harbour, there's the zoo and seaworld. The zoo is pretty neat, I didn't go to the seaworld, but I heard from my family who went, that the aquarium is better. If you wanna carry a koala, you should go to Cairns or elsewhere, not sure about Melbourne. Because ppl are not allowed to carry/touch a koala in New South Wales. In Cairns, they allow so, I have a picture of myself carrying one there. In Sydney, you can just stand beside it and take photos.

Of course, I'm not done yet, with Sydney :P more places to visit include Watsons Bay, Port Douglas, Hunter Valley and the Blue Mountains. Watsons Bay is scenic, overlooking the harbour and the ocean. Port Douglas is about 2-3hrs drive up north of Sydney, where there are dolphine tours and sand dunes. The sand dunes are spectacular, as it's right next to the ocean. You can go sandboarding there, ride camels and such.

Hunter Valley... is also a short drive out of Sydney, I've never been there myself, but the reason people go there, I can't say here :P

Blue Mountains is also another drive/train out of Sydney to the west. There's a rock formation there known as the three sisters. There, there's also the Jenolan Caves there, which is quite cool. Other than that there's a few quaint little shops that's quite interesting to some =)

That's all for now, I can't think of anything else at the moment :)

I even forgot to include the pies at Woolloomooloo!

And about Penang... It'll be on facebook :P So I'm not gonna talk about it here. Besides, pictures are worth thousands of words ;)

Do I hear a WHEE~?

2009-12-22T22:01:00.003+08:00

So I got my chin up bar :D

It's now attached, and yet, I dare not use it yet xD Gonna wait till dad drills some support screws in :P

Quick overview on the Penang Road Trip. It was something really new, and really filled with food. A lot of things I envisioned it to be, was not to be. But it was still really enjoyable! :) Can't wait for my next trip!

And back to office again!

2009-12-22T00:46:00.002+08:00

First road trip done!

Yep, at the age of 24, I've finally went through my first road trip with friends from the office!

However, as usual, story will come later, as it's almost 1 AM right now.

My first wishlist was done at last at least :D And now placed in the navigation bar ~ :D

Sweet dreams!

ZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Food for the Heart & Soul

2009-12-22T00:01:00.025+08:00

Things I'm saving up for!

Big things (cost exceeding 1000)

A house on land in a good location or a unit in Titiwangsa Sentral, The Greens TTDI, Surian Condominium :D
Trip to China/Italy
Bathroom tiles & shower doors (basically to renovate my bathroom a bit)

Medium things

A pet cat
Bloch ® Adult Wave Sneaker (Silver/Graphite/Purple)
~~A hot water heater tank~~ YAYAYAYAYA!
~~A new radio + speakers for my car~~ I actually got a new car instead o.O
Rollerblades!
The oh-so-cute! new iPod nano (green/orange/red)
~~A good squash racket~~ Now I need the time to play squash o.o
Day curtains for the room

Small things (costing less than 100)

Food undeez/Foot glove :D such as Bloch ® Soleil Foot Glove or Capezio ® Unisex FootUndeez™
~~Sailing knee pads! :D~~ Now where did I put these...
~~A small wallet. Don't like big ones anymore. And a card holder for the cards.~~ Got my wallet here
Travel items like padlocks

Immaterial things

Happyness
Sleeping in a couple of mornings weekly
More patience
Someone special with me always
Assertiveness
"true" friends?

Things I like to have

Bed stuff: Quilt sets, bed sheet sets, etc.
Chocolates!
Magnets for the office cubicle

Things I usually don't like to receive as gifts =p

Photo frames, albums
Key rings
Soft toys

Road Trip to the North!

2009-12-18T08:03:00.002+08:00

I was planning to blog about @p, but the pace of life have picked up again, and in a couple of hours, I'll be off to Taiping and Penang. So can't write much now, as I've just began to pack :P

See you in a few days! ^^

Solitude

2009-12-16T21:49:00.000+08:00

is the name of this blogger skin. I love it! :)

Found their site through April, and now fixing it up beginning with the 'about me' post which is the previous post and now linked at the navigation panel up there.

And this site even thought me how to upload a blogger skin without having to redo all my widgets! :D Previously, I'd save each widget individually, then reload them again manually.

Next, will be mah wishlist :D Which I decided to do not too long ago but haven't actually gotten round to doing it!

About the Ayinpire

2009-12-16T19:32:00.002+08:00

As the address of the blog says:

Ayin is me.

Ayinpire is one of my newest online nickname, which ain't that new anymore. But it's uniquely me. Unlike my old yet still active kittenz. Sometimes paired with numbers, either 747 and 23. Well, this is the online me.

In the real world, I'm also known as Naz. Short for Nazreen. Let me explain about Naz and Ayin, since it's one of the mind bogglers to many about my identity. My family calls me Ayin, a nickname I acquired before I can even remember. The story is that, I could not pronounce my real name and kept on saying Ayin, and my dear family decided to call me just that.

As I grew up with my big brother myuu sailing the Optimist (yea, those times!), sailor-people who knew my family then knew me as Ayin. So in the sailing world, I'm Ayin.

However, academic-wise, at all levels except my degree, I was known as Naz. All the way from primary school, secondary school and then my first university where I did my diploma (which in Malaysia is somewhat between pre-uni and a bachelor's degree).

Yet it was during my diploma days, where online gaming and networking started to grow on me. Even though I've been exposed to the internet when it was nothing but dial-up, irc and playsite (where my first ever username online was paw) at an early age, it was now that I started to expand my network through online games, beginning with neopets (yes, I would readily admit it :P). I still enjoy mmorpgs better, but they're just too time consuming now. But anyway, back to the 'topic', in the online world, I'm Ayin.

This carried forward into my bachelor days in UNSW. My housemates called me Ayin because that's what was written on my messenger. It caught on to those people around and close us housemates, but not far enough to my coursemates. So I was half-half known as Ayin and Naz there.

Now that I've started working, my colleagues call me Naz. As that's how I'm introduced to people around there. However, there are some people in my office who has been introduced to me as Ayin from my uni days, so, it causes some confusion in others. xD

So that's the story of Ayin :)

I respond to Naz, Nazreen and Ayin equally well that I wouldn't notice at all if you switched calling me between Naz and Ayin.

What about ayinpire? I bite. So Ayin + Vampire = Ayinpire.

Stress and Moodyness don't mix well

2009-12-15T21:25:00.003+08:00

Today's a good day.

But not yesterday, not the day before. And a couple of days before that too. I had a mix of being stressed out and moody at the same time. And moody here is pretty much being at that snappy kind of person who gets annoyed so easily at small things.

Moody is that time of the month.

For some funny reason I'm not moody today.

So far so good.

missed gym. work. lunch with awesome ppl. work. PRIME. drop by the shop for onions and garlic. cooked dinner. dinner. blog

now with Miss April uploading a new blog template, I wants one too! :D

She's mah super cool colleague, whom I speak lolspeak with almost on a daily basis. Posted aboutz me once too :o I certainly wanna return the honour someday. This post definitely is not enough.

Nevertheless, even on good days, things can still go blah. But when it's a good day, it's a good day, where small things do not annoy you. Today's small thing that I can recall is my car's hand break not working :P It won't go up.

Hmm I have a bunch of random stuff in this post :D

BiO. Now HERE's the climb.

2009-11-30T18:27:00.006+08:00

Back in Office.

I reckon that the remaining rest of the year, and the year ahead, will be a steep learning curve for me. Now I'm onward into attempting to finish my research paper the best I can, then there's some fill-in-the-job for someone who's leaving my team to further her studies (wishing her the best of luck and best wishes!), and then there's the Annual Report and Financial Stability Reports coming.

As for details about sailing.. Having two regattas back to back, my memory has jumbled itself up. When someone asks, 'how did it go?', I am unsure on which regatta to describe. 'Did i win?' is also.. subjective.

So I'm prolly not gonna describe about my experience and adventure until someone asks me about something which is 'blog-worthy' in my opinion :P

Here's my silliness from a few months back for not applying sunblock on some skin :P

Yes, it hurt. :P

Does reality bite?

2009-11-29T11:28:00.004+08:00

It's a Sunday. And tomorrow is a work day.

It's been two weeks since I've been in the office, and away sailing. Now on this fine Sunday morning, I've just completed my laundry, and currently settling my bills. My credit card bill is > 1k.

Sailing can indeed be expensive. Thankfully the charges came mostly from the first regatta, and I had sponsors for the match racing the following week. So anyone looking for sails, do checkout Quantum Sails ;D They're amazing! Our team got some of the nifty items from this page:

Q Short Sleeve Cotton Tee Shirts
Small Sailcloth Duffel Bag

Thanks to Ai Li for the photo!

The expenses incurred during the Raja Muda includes and not limited to:

Accommodation @ Pangkor & Penang
Entry fee (RM300)

What other expenses did I incur during the month besides the usual phone bills and such? Car servicing: RM400

Nevertheless, I am thankful :)

I can afford it ;p

Back to 'normal life'

2009-11-29T00:59:00.002+08:00

I arrived back in KL about 5 hours ago, and just finished unpacking most of my stuff.

By this time, I've pretty much forgot stuff that happened, whatever it may be, during the Raja Muda Regatta :P

Anyhow, updates later, I'm now gonna enjoy my loooovely own bed!

When the night has come

2009-11-21T12:55:00.002+08:00

"Stand by me" was the one song that I kept thinking off while I sailed through the night. Especially the part 'when the night has come, and the land is dark'.

There's so much to tell about the Raja Muda Race that I participated in, but being a no good story-teller, I've no idea how to tell it in a non-boring way. So here goes anyway.

The facts first:

There's three main passages to race. Port Klang - Pangkor Island - Penang Island - Langkawi Island
In all three passage races, we started off around 1 pm.
We arrived in Pangkor Island at about 8 am the following day, Penang Island about 4 am the following day, and Langkawi at about 9.30 pm the same day (yay)
I sailed in a Hunter 49 boat
I threw up a total of 4 times: thrice on the first passage, once on the second, and none on third!

One thing for sure, is that I learned a LOT from my first offshore racing. I really don't know if I'll do this again. Not next year for sure. Nevertheless, I certainly do not regret going for it.

To be continued...

Here we go!

2009-11-14T07:56:00.003+08:00

Just waiting for Rudy to come by in about 35 mins, while eating my breakfast and doing some quick browsing around the internet before I'm offline for a week.

Then fly back to attend BNM's annual dinner (50th anniversary, woohoo!) and then fly off to Terengganu Sunday morning (22nd) for match racing! (my first match racing competition, whee!)

Last night, I didn't sleep soundly. I guess the nervousness has turned into more of excitement now. Really can't wait to experience this off-shoreness stuff.

Off we go!

When's the last time I've been as nervous as this?

2009-11-05T22:05:00.004+08:00

Next weekend (14th onwards), I'll be in a big race. It's gonna be my first off shore racing, and definitely will be racing through the night. I've already started dreaming about it when I sleep at night.

I'm so damn nervous about it.

Kinda sad that after all these years sailing, I've only started keelboat sailing this year. The sailing I did in Syd, even tho it has a keel, still felt more like a dinghy. (A very fun one that is! Wish they'd be available in Malaysia someday)

I'm quite anxious too, to get started. Part of the reason I'm rather nervous is that last I heard, there's only six crew altogether on board manning a 49ft yacht. Shifts? Perhaps none =p I reckon there'll be more people tho!

I remember while in Sydney, since training was from 4 to about 7 pm, I get a little nervous as the day starts to darken, and we're still out on the waters. Now I'll be sailing through the night!

Yet after this experience, I'm certainly eager to do more offshore racing. It feels like I'm 'completing' my being a sailor somewhat!

The world gets smaller and smaller

2009-10-31T21:58:00.003+08:00

Today was the Festival of Sails @ RSYC. Something like a mini regatta that I attended and skippered a platu. Communication certainly lacked a lot coming into today. It was rather unusual that today was one of the days, when there seemed to be too many crew and not enough skippers. Or so it seems.

So today, I had 7 ppl on board. From 5 to 3 to 5 to 6 to 8 to 7. All change within 24 hrs. Anyhow, despite having more weight on board, I reckon we did fairly good, finishing first on the first race. However, on the pursuit back to the club, I forgot to keep some marks on port, thus marked 'DNF' (Did Not Finish), after I crossed the line second. Still, awesome effort! :)

Shortly after I arrived at the club and met Ian, he looked at me straight and said "I have something very important to ask you: Where you at a wedding last weekend? Mervin & Swee Fong's wedding?". (The wedding I mentioned in the last post). To which I replied yeah, and he asked "the bride's side or the groom's?", where I replied, "bride's". And then he proceeded to explain that his niece came back to Malaysia all the way from UK to attend the same wedding! She was both in the morning session and the dinner. I later explained that the bride's my cousin.

So now, I'm 'like' family to them. Hehehe ^^

We had the prize giving for the whole series of sailing this year. Ai Li's team, in which I crew for and sometimes helm, clinched 2nd place :) First place went to Tom, third to Jeremy. And that's for the One Design (Platu) series. As for the cruisers, Rapscallions earned 2nd place too! We'll totally do better next time!

Sailing Teams

2009-10-25T21:55:00.004+08:00

Here's the crew on board Rapscallion:

Standing, L-R: Nicky, Jeff, Ian, Ayin
Front, L-R: Rohit, Chris

And here's the AY team for the Malaysian Match Racing Championship which doubles as a qualifier to the Monsoon Cup:

Standing, L-R: Arif, Nicky, Ayin, Lan (manager), Ai Li, Fariz, Geng

I still recall that I wanted to talk more of what happened last Sunday, but I forgot what it was. I think it was a day of doing all sorts of undone chores. Haha, sorry, I forgot!

Yesterday was my cousin's wedding. Now that, is another blog post :P

Right now I have to try and do my h/w x)

Lack of Interest

2009-10-22T22:35:00.001+08:00

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Shedding Skins

2009-10-18T20:15:00.002+08:00

Yes, scoured around for a new template. But I'm not really settled with this one.

Lots of things to mention about from today, but it's not over yet. So next post perhaps ;)

Something what I think, may be...

2009-10-16T23:57:00.003+08:00

My first luxury item I bought since I started getting paychecks. No doubt I've spend a lil here and there. But today, I finally officiated my first luxury item: 340 threadcount, 100% cotton sateen, fitted sheet from Aussino. I love it.

(As I write this, I just thought.. I should've taken a picture of it before I unwrapped it)

Almost immediately after I unwrapped it, I laid it out on my bed, spread it, fitted it in, and lie on it. Yes, I'm totally in love with it. It's so smooth, so fine, so... lovely. I just had to blog about it immediately. Haha!

Now I just realised, that it may not be my first luxury item afterall. Perhaps it's my first long-lasting luxury item, as other stuff... more like indulgences. Such as hair-dos, spa visits (twice ever so far), and fooood. Which reminds me, I had a new haircut yesterday :P My hair's so so short right now.

<3 Aussino

Other unrelated matters: I seriously need new clothes... I've measured my waist, and I'm now about 28-29 inches, as compared to 24 inches when I left for Australia. 25 inches when I got back. It's no fun at all trying to fit into my old and not-so-old clothes in my current condition.

Nearing mid-October

2009-10-11T23:21:00.002+08:00

And things are as busy as ever. Can't wait till the end of this month. Another wedding to attend, which seems like I am unlikely to (it's in JB), and there's a Festival of Sails.

And there's still classes, and training, and homework, and work itself. In addition to the busy October, there's workshops, and presentations to make.

*tries to stay low*

And right now, I'm not even feeling well. I don't know if I can go to work tomorrow.

September Stress flowing into October

2009-10-04T22:01:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, being the pioneer of something can be so messed up. Expectations too. I got a feeling I'm going downwards in the 'up and down' cycle, if I've not already reached the bottom.

All my weekends, pretty much devoted for sailing. It's one of my priorities, and something I would not let go easily. I believe it's my right too... Which may result me in performing below expectations of other things.. like work.

Often I do wonder if I have too much on my plate. If me doing several different things stretches my time too few. Or am I not being efficient enough with my time at work? While in uni, I experimented with several different things. I remember letting some go in the end. It feels like I have to let more go soon. This makes my mind think of culture.

With the swirl of several cultures around us, how do I respond? Do I create/follow my own 'culture', whatever that may be, or does culture shape me? Some parties ask for change, and hope that we newbies can facilitate that change, but at the same time, we are already absorbing what is culture currently is. (Despite the numerous complains)

I wonder what's it like to be freelance o.o

Becareful what you wish for..

2009-09-17T19:07:00.004+08:00

Funny, just about two days ago I was wishing to have a day off to sleep in. Yesterday, I overslept :P Usually, I'm off to work by 7.15AM during Ramadan. I woke up at 7.20AM.

In addition, I had to drop by the ATM to get some cash to exchange for new notes, which was something I had to do between 8 - 10AM. The new notes is for raya. What's raya? See here.

Yesterday evening was rather interesting. We (the new trainees) were having some buka puasa event, and there were VVIPs. So we were assigned places onto three tables, where one VVIP was seated at each. I'm not assigned to the most VVIP of them, and I felt rather funny and somewhat underperforming. That's because sometimes.. or most times, I'm rather critical of myself and always want to look the best. (One of the ways is like being assigned to the most important table). Anyhow, blessing in disguise, since my table's VVIP had to leave early, and most of the others too, except the most VVIP, I get to leave early too :D

So? Becareful what you wish for ;)

Cats make me jealous

2009-09-16T00:29:00.005+08:00

Something "serious" for a change. ;D

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*pokes my latest twitter about wanting to sleep in*

Random Thoughts

2009-09-13T22:28:00.004+08:00

There's always something in my mind. At times, I'd think of something and tell myself, I should blog about it. Then at the time I come on the computer, I totally forget what it was.

People make me wonder a lot. Especially on why they do things. How they view the world. I believe in empathizing with other people to understand them. Yet there are times I still can't.

In some ways, everyone needs help. For any kind of reason. Some people can easily receive help, while others are more resistant. Eventually I think it all comes down to them, whether they want to help themselves.

Like sometimes, I get upset. And I stay upset. And during that time, sometimes no matter what anyone does to cheer me up, I reject that effort. Many times I'm being stubborn or more demanding, feeling that the effort is not enough. It has happened before. But perhaps, I did not want to let myself be cheered.

So when it comes to self improvement, it's eventually up to the person itself if he or she really wants to. Though still, outside factors and motivations still play a big role.

I don't really know what I'm going on about here right now. Can I believe, that on top of all the outside factors and our surroundings during our upbringing, the moment where we can start thinking for ourselves, we are responsible for our own living, and how we choose to live life?

I think, that's the thing that makes me wonder...

Personal Time

2009-09-03T22:47:00.003+08:00

I was out for buka puasa with my friend/colleague, April. We always have lots to chat about, no matter when. Hahaha, if it's not about work, it's about something crazy or funny like lolcat and FML. There was this one topic we talked about: Personal Time.

To me, Personal Time is pretty much my private time. For me, myself and I. It would be the time I spend doing whatever I feel like, even if I feel like doing nothing, in my own personal and private space. My room. Of course it can extend to other parts of the house, but you get what I mean (I hope :P). But, when? While I'm still waiting for the opportunity to have personal time for a full 24 hrs, mostly it's at night after the daily rituals. Work, dinner, training, etc.

But do what? Sometimes with that personal time, people don't know what to do. Nothing good on tv, no books to read, etc. I'm rather thankful that I'd always have something to do. Besides my tendency to play games, I've started reading books again, thanks to the discount I've received from BNM's Knowledge Fair. I'd list down the books I bought, but Adik borrowed one, and I can't remember the title name (it's a long title! :P). So I'll list it later.

Of course, there's the physical and mental factor. Sometimes we're just too tired to do anything in our spare time. For some reason, I tend to feel that way every night. That really limits my socialising time. I guess that's what working life is all about. (*sob sob* haha)

I'm certainly looking forward to my personal time always. Not that I'm pushing everyone away! I still need to try harder to strike a balance with everything.

Meaning of Doing what You're Doing

2009-09-03T00:07:00.003+08:00

This sorta stems out from having a goal. Now, when given a task, I try to find the meaning of what I do. Sometimes things seem so.. basic, and we feel like doing something 'more meaningful'. But is the other something really more meaningful, or is it just us failing to see the reason and meaning behind doing something basic.

If only I step back and give it a thought. What is this basic thing I'm doing, and what is it for? Is it something I can improve on, does it require more technical skills? Sometimes, I actually wish I did programming :P I know it's not too late to learn. And I'd hate to say this, but there is a need to have more hours in a day xP

I don't like saying 'no time' as an excuse, yet I do that all the time. Thus I have this urge to manage my time well, so that I have ample personal time to make me happy with how I'm living. Sadly, I have very very limited time for family and friends. Hmm, maybe it's my diet. If I maintain a healthier balance of diet, perhaps I won't feel exhausted too easily and be able to stretch the day longer. Maybe!

Attachment begins

2009-08-28T18:09:00.002+08:00

And it feels really weird to be away from your office, but in the same building. I reckon I'm still trying to adjust to work culture in general. Seems like school again, the introvert-ness in me is sticking out a bit.

I often wish I'm back in my dept. I miss the times I head to the gym in the morning with April. Breakfast, lunch, at HQ as well as training centre. Right now, I miss a lot of things...

MR, I wanna MR

2009-08-18T17:14:00.003+08:00

No, I don't 'wanna Mister'.

I wanna Match Race.

Just went for a course in match racing in Putrajaya. Despite the heat and the weirdness of the accommodation being so far and stuff, I wished the course was much longer. Though that would not be good, given that I have an 'exam' this Friday on central banking stuff.

Nevertheless I'm so thankful to be given the opportunity to participate, with many many thanks to Asian Yachting. I was even mentioned in the papers :D

No doubt there are still plenty of obstacles ahead, but I will do my best no matter what.

<3

The Routine of Life

2009-08-13T13:30:00.004+08:00

Hm. What's new? Nothing really. I'd like to think my life is rather routine-ic. Yet uncertainties remain plenty. One thing remains the same tho: busy.

Of course, there are the human needs that would certainly require time.

Staying at the training centre helps a lot, as I have lots to worry less. But that does not mean I have more time. I quite enjoy spending some time after work doing some sort of physical activity with my friends here such as squash, badminton and swimming. And after that, or more specifically, after dinner, I wind down while watching tv, or just staying in my room by myself. Just spending time with myself was starting to be difficult, so I'm definitely pleased to be able to do that here.

Over the weekend, I also bought some books using the discount given to us. I've started reading one, but am yet to go far. It's not even a thick book, but yeah, issue of time is still a factor.

Now, time for my quick lunch nap :D

Turning "PR" at HCDC

2009-08-04T13:10:00.003+08:00

Haha @ me only posting once last month. Where on earth did July go?

Yet the joys of the month will still linger long... If only time goes much slower when you're having fun.

If only I can make everything in life fun. Actually, I can.

Looking for: more time!

Now that August is here, I've moved to staying at the training centre for many reasons:

Food
Hot Water
Friends
No transportation hassle

Yezzzzaaaa I'm still alive!

2009-07-24T19:35:00.002+08:00

Where have I been?

One word: BUSY.

I've been on my work's 6-month training programme (in week 4 now), sailing on weekends, and entertaining a special guest. Technically, I have no time for anything else.

To top it all off: I forgot my pw to this acct. So it took me a while to fix that :P

But as they say, a new broom sweeps clean. This blog may be turning into an old broom now. But regardless, it's still my channel for random blabber. ;D

Sick

2009-06-11T22:29:00.000+08:00

I am.

Still.

High temperature

2009-06-05T14:01:00.002+08:00

Today I'm not at work due to a fever. Last night I apparently reached to 38.9 C

(ok, so technically i stopped writing after that and saved it as draft, and only just looking at it now, on Sunday 9.30 pm, but continuation after this)

It was one of the days, where time in the office feels like forever. Often it passes by rather ok, not too fast, not too slow either, but feeling sick since lunch-time made me keep a close watch on the clock, waiting for it arrive at going-home time. Tho unless I'm mistaken, I could take time off to see the doctor... But I felt like, it's just the second half of the work day.. I can manage.. Don't know when I've ever felt that cold because of sickness xP

And because of that.. I've totally lagged in doing some stuff I wanted... And still having the aftermaths of the illness still drags this further... Oh well, I get to rest for once! ^_^

Effective Communication

2009-06-03T22:31:00.002+08:00

comes by talking!

But not talking alone. Trust, sincerity and openness helps build effective communication. Oh, and also respect.

Without respect, it's hard to be able to listen to the other speaking.
Without trust, it's hard to believe what the other is saying.
Without sincerity, it's hard to bring the message to the other.
Without openess, it's hard to accept what the other is conveying.

But having full open discussion ain't simple. For myself, I have to gather the courage to speak out, and hear what others have to say about myself, be it nasty or nice.

But to be able to do so in the end.. feels like an achievement for me =)

Musicals, musicals~

2009-06-01T00:12:00.002+08:00

I have Phantom of the Opera stuck in my head at the moment. Triggered by watching one of the finalist on Britain's Got Talent through youtube. I remember mentioning at one point that I went to watch the musical while they performed in Sydney. Can't recall if I posted about it.

Anyway, loves it!! =D If I had the chance, I'd so go to more!

Sunday's racing wasn't so good (was really bad in fact). I still need to get used to the boat. And to communicate to the crew. Anyhow, seems like we're gonna start training again soon =)

Star Trek

2009-05-28T18:22:00.001+08:00

So I finally watched the movie last night under Nan's recommendation. I enjoyed it ^_^

edit: whoops i totally forgot to talk more about this and published it. so here it is :P short.
(posted 7th June 2009 @ 9.30 pm)

Finance & Economics

2009-05-26T18:41:00.002+08:00

Thinking can be fun. Really.

Thinking about finance and economics, is like thinking about siblings. They both come together, they both influence each other. Like organs and health. Like :P

Anyone can easily figure out general economics. Put yourself in a small economy (let's say maplestory or even neopets), and you'd be able to tell if prices will go up or down, what the demand and supply forces are like. Then lots of people engage in these economic activities. So there you have the basics. In a way, you could say it's a simplistic economic model of real economy. (As in, real life, not net/gross/per capita whatever). The main/huge difference, is risk. Think about it. (Srsly, thinking can be fun!)

What is not so fun about what I'm working with at the moment? The law part of it :P

A dose of Ayin's randomness

2009-05-25T21:19:00.002+08:00

I received my new lenses on my spectacles today!

Today's jam was bad, but not so bad.

Had really really early dinner. Well not that early, was around 6.45 pm maybe?

I'm tired.

I ended up wearing a combination of office clothes that I didn't quite like.

Anuar was asleep when I dropped by at P16.

I cut my toenails today.

Hmm.. maybe not as random as it seems. Mebbe more like snippets of the day :p

I like to move it move it!

2009-05-23T22:36:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was full of rawr. Today, despite having a headache all day, retail therapy has helped lift my general mood up.

Spent the afternoon at 1 Utama till evening, and at one place they were playing Madagascar on some of the TVs at the electronic section. Their song is now stuck in my head.

Anyways, my target was to get more clothes for the office, and gym pants, since I found out that my sailing track pants are not really suitable.. xP No suitable gym pants found, focused more on office clothes. Ah well =)

Then staying at P16 now, I get to try some of my mum's old clothes. They fit well! Tho actually a bit tight to put on o.o

First full paycheck coming soon! :D

Time, work, play...

2009-05-22T20:14:00.003+08:00

I have a rather not so happy thing about working. The problem is not that I hate work or the having to go to office daily. It's being rushed into starting work. Being told again and again to hurry up and start working and hearing rants about how slow my employer is, in absorbing me into office.. just so that I can start earning.

It's just like about cooking. For a long time, I avoided the kitchen, hated the kitchen, hated being pushed to know how to cook and prepare stuff... just because I'm a girl. I don't see my brothers being told off all the time to be 'kitchen-savvy'.

And, it doesn't end there. Tho, that's life, isn't it? Having ppl put all sorts of expectations on you and pushing you to do things they think you should be doing. But for me, passion does not come from there. Instead, it just makes me reject it more.

I'm 24 now. I do need my space to make my own decisions. Not that I'm going to make rash and irrational judgment. Not that I'm going to totally shun away advice and such either. So much I could rant about, but something's pulling me back. Anyways on the bright side, it's Friday ^_^

Time passed by and it's about a month since my last update. What happened since the last time? I don't know. I may remember, but I can't be bothered to think. Not now, not on a Friday night.

What I do know, is that now everyday there's something. There's no day of doing nothing. Either work, or 'play'. Is it a complaint? Maybe, maybe not. Perhaps it's not something complain about. Perhaps, you don't know me :p

Officially a Graduate

2009-04-26T20:10:00.002+08:00

5 days, 4 nights, 15 hrs of flight, morning/noon flights.

Seriously not enough. I only managed to squeeze in 3 full days in Sydney. It wasn't a holiday. It was a trip. I wished I had more time, but it's ok, hopefully it pays off.

Most of it was spent on campus, surrounded by my dear friends, whom I really miss. Given my short time there, it allowed me to reflect back of all our friendships, and makes me ponder of how it's gonna be like from here onwards.

Nevertheless, it's a blessing. :)

Pics have been uploaded on facebook, tho it's not all of them. I wanna post one here sometime soon tho, once I find a fitting one for here xD

I wanted to type a lot more, but.. I keep getting distracted o.o *blames having 5 convos and tonnes of tabs open on firefox* :P

The Week After

2009-04-12T11:04:00.002+08:00

Work has begun, and my focus is to get into the groove of things. Waking up early, having little home time, thinking how to solve problems and more. I hope it doesn't take too long to get into the flow of things, but it does take a lot of effort. Thankfully things are going well so far, friendly colleagues, interesting tasks, lovely environment and more. (I shall not elaborate :P)

The only *really* bad thing that happened is having my foot stepped on with force by someone wearing thin heels.. and not thin as in short heels, but more like, the ones that can possibly pierce through solid matter (ok, I exaggerate a bit ;P). But nevertheless, it left a mark on my foot: a huge bruise that made walking painful.

I can still feel it right now, a lot less, but still there.

Oh, random things, I bumped into Zaid's family at Ikea, wow the children have grown up a lot :o They're still so cute and adorable tho! ^_^ Doubt that they remember me tho.

The next couple of months will be really busy. I'm hoping training will be done by then, so I could take time off in July...

Still, it's some time till then. So till then. Till then.

Next week I'll be off to Sydney. Feels kinda weird, for some reason.

Tomorrow I report to work

2009-04-05T22:22:00.002+08:00

Thus, I've been lazy to blog and doing all sorts of other things. Among them, gaming.

Yep, how typical of me :P After the interview and medical checkup, which has stories of it's own, rather personal, but nevertheless, makes me go o.O Too personal to write here :P Sorry!

I've diverted from playing maplestory cuz the regional stuff just sucks, and it's so time consuming unless you have some spare cash. I have neither. From being cut off from allowance since the completion of my studies, to the waiting time before I am able to start work. Seriously, it's beyond my power :P

So instead, I've been playing a bit of Left 4 Dead, and Zombie Panic! Source. Been trying it out on my bro's account, and seems fun, I might invest it them someday.. someday :P after there's more cash inflow.

Of course, it's not all games. Besides the many never-ending chores in between, I watched "Confessions of a Shopaholic" yesterday. I've also did a bit of shopping (for work clothes, k?) and exploring... as, after all this while, I've never actually fully explored the malls at Mutiara D'sara. It's interesting to discover some "handy" shops, like the 'all rm5' shop, consisting of stuff from Japan, which I'm guessing came from the 100Yen shop. The size of the shop is impressive too, as it has... maaaany maaaaany things! On the 3rd floor of The Curve.

Now, back to tomorrow.. I start work. I think I'm very intimidated because of my unfamiliarity with the organisation. And its size :D Yet at the same time anxious to know what I have to do, what's to be done, and what can I do to be the best :D