The Pressure is Onnnn

One study week, One week of exams, One dance competition maybe?

Sailing~!!!

Starting from the first day of the women's summer squad training at CYCA is fun. Last week the wind was really strong, everyone got sprayed with water. This week the wind was light, enabling me to learn to be the bow properly. Tho I still suck =p

Now I'm not really looking forward to the dance.. o.o it's gonna take a big chunk outta my study time, and it's something I don't think I can afford to do at the moment, being my last semester. I have to do all I can to pass and excel. (Just pass for actl). I'm really inclined to pull out.. I just gotta figure out how to tell my partner...

Have I ever mentioned how beautiful it is to sail in Sydney? =D


more animals

Why~?

Why do I have a blog? :P

Just a random thought as Sindy and I talk about blogs and people in my room :D

(Oh please don't look back at my old old posts on this blog xD)

Happy 21st, Hui Chien ^_^

We celebrated our housemate Hui Chien's birthday last Monday during our mid-term break at Waterfront, Circular Quay, together with Mei Chia as well. Pictures on facebook as usual =p

For MC, we compiled a collage of photos on a board, while for HC we compiled notes written from various friends into an album.

Here's a poem I wrote for my note to her, just to fill up such a huge paper xP (tho it was only A4). Note that there are a lot of inside jokes/details, so there will be bits that seem like, 'err what?'

Just over two decades ago,
Hui Chien's adventure began,
Time flew and here she is now,
Grown yet still a growing woman.

By chance we met, and from there
the past recurring through our thoughts
Blaming each other, everywhere
to the eyes of others, we always fought

From the time we lived together
Our fondness and 'hatred' grew
Pitting our wits against each other
We exercised our passion to argue

Yet fun times remain plenty
Leeching cooking skills are rewarding ;)
Shopping trips made our purses empty
Yet those times are amazing :)

There were good times and bad times
And I am honoured to share them with you
Throught time, I've learned your signs
To be happy, my *pods* you chew

Nothing in life is a smooth sailing,
Many trying times will occur,
Yet you remain strong and smiling,
Inspiring others to persevere.

In your twenty one years,
You achieved such great heights,
Yet your journey is far from over,
No doubt you'll go much much further.

Truly I am grateful,
to be your housemate, and friend,
No other being is like you,
No other person can really spend. xD

From this auspicious occasion onward
Continue blessing those around you
With your presence, your warmth, so pure
Always be optimistic, always stay true

Wishing you a very happy 21st
From the one you love to hate
May our friendship ever last
May your beauty never fade

~Ayin
2008

No, it does not totally rhyme. I didn't really care =p Time was short, and there was much to be done.

Here I am now in the Computer Lab during a public holiday working on assignments T_T

Mid-semester break

is finally here.

But in a way, there is no break T_T

My shin got bruised from sailing today, but it was worth it.

Random: if i said i'll hurt myself physically to make myself happy, would that be ok?

S.A.D. is not Sad

Eh, but I can be sad anyway. lol, now I sound emo too.

Anyway, S.A.D., initially meant to be Single, Available, Desperate...

It then was adjusted to Single, Available, Desireable (just to not sound desperate)

Anyways, since then, all sorts of variations came up to suit different situations or statuses of people. For example, for those 'not single', they go by Super/Sexy/Smart, whatever...

Usually it's positive. But today I just thought of a negative of that. Stupid, Absent-minded, Dreadful. I actually thought of different er.. adjectives? for A and D, but I forgot them. But they work. Now that I put more thought into it, there's so many ways to use S.A.D. as an acronym.

"I don't care enough"

Hehe, I'm a very confused person now...

On the plus side, CYCA's Australian Youth Match Racing Regatta is done, and I experienced a lot helping out the race committee. Despite coming home really tired, sore and burnt, no regrets there... Especially with all the new opportunities present. Should be awesome.

Now, back to work.

Resigned to some facts

It's been really tiring, the past few weeks, including this one. I've done my best, and is still trying. Just some things, seems too late to mend, so I'll just do what I can...

Some obstacles turn out good, but at the expense of almost failures in others. I try anyways.

So there are some things, which I don't think I can better in time, and neither will I overdo myself to the point it becomes hazardous to my health =p So yeah, I just do what I can..

Now, let's be s.a.d.~

I'm joking, haha, after dinner, we came out with s.a.d. as abbreviations to something.. but lemme see your guesses first ^_^ I'll write out what we meant sometime in the next blog post or so...

Happy Ramadan ^_^

Finally spring! (idc if it's official or not or anything, but it will get warmer!)

I managed to get all my puasa ganti in time before Ramadan 2008. This year I'm gonna see if I can puasa for the full month or not :P It can happen.

Anyway, I'd like to wish everyone Selamat Berpuasa ^_^

In other news, I passed my first class test for actuarial o_o I'm very happy with that.

For the next three weeks, university is a nightmare o_o

My Head Hurts...

Most people around me knows how often I get headaches, and not migraines, but tension headaches T.T

Anyway, I always wondered what causes mine. It mainly attributes to stress, but sometimes even when I'm not *too* stressed, I get them. Well, usually when I wake up or so. With the doctor's advice, I try to relax more and exercise (which I'm failing the exercise bit atm), and dad tells me not to worry so much all the time. (ilu dad ^^) Doctor also tells me to watch my posture, sleep on a firm pillow and all that. I love my pillow. (Even if it's hard for some people).

From thinking that my posture might be the root of the problem, I adjusted my desk chair to make sure it's on a better level relative to my computer. But the headaches persist. Then it was only recently I realised that my sleeping posture does not seem right. While I have nice pillows and all that, with one that is shaped like those contour pillow things, I noticed that I tend to curl up sideways in my sleep. So that was keeping my head facing downwards, rather than facing sideways.

So yeah.. uhh... o.o *is trying not to curl up when sleeping now*

Ps. winter please go away and let spring come!

Frustrations :P - Continued

Realization - one of the possible reasons we easily get those little frustrations:

'PMS'

On another note, I wanna take part in some sail training this summer o_o Can I stay in Australia a bit longer?

Frustrations :P

Things are often hectic and busy. This semester I know will be one of my busiest, if not the most. Usually in general, we are able to deal with tiny frustrations in various ways, whether it be getting angry, or venting, or ranting, or eating, etc. :P

I think these past few days I kinda bottled up some of my frustrations that it kinda reached the boiling point. I'm not really sure what I can do to release 'em, but sometimes it helps to talk :)

However I've learnt, that you just can't talk to anybody, and I mean it towards people who are close to me, or I thought was close. I thought/think we are, but often it doesn't seem so.

In fact, sometimes the people who are close to you are the ones that give you frustrations. And I don't mean the kind that deliberately back stab or hurt you, it's just the kind that sometimes takes you for granted or do things that feels like they're disrespecting you but do it anyway thinking that it's alright since we're 'tight'.

Maybe, like I was telling someone, is that when someone or friends are so close to you, that you expect more out of them, like more empathy and understanding, at the very least, to appreciate your efforts and such.

On the other hand, there was this feeling I had, that sometimes in the initial stages of friendship, the wanting to keep the friendship makes me more tolerant to others, yet after a longer while, some stuff starts to feel irritating to a certain extent, and things start to go wrong.

So anyway, just pieces of stuff from my mind at the moment :P

Tomorrow I'm gonna try swing dancing :o and I just bought tickets to Phantom of the Opera. I keep hearing soo much about it, finally got a chance to witness it for myself.

And current song in my mind:
Song: A New Day Has Come
Artist: Celine Dion

I love the dances to the song (sytycd), and the lyrics too.