Intense and Stressful

I'm having my midsession holiday, ya...

So... I wanted to devote my holidays to studying my worst subject this semester... I have a total of nine weeks of lecture to study, and about nine days of holiday... It's already day seven, and I'm still stuck at week one's lecture...

Ugh... As much as I try and tell myself I can do it, somehow, I'm still so afraid that I can't catch up in time, for the second test in two weeks, and finals in a month... As much as I stared and looked at the lecture notes, the examples from the text, only half of it looks familiar and understandable.... As for the rest, it's like a foreign language to me...

I've really lost my confidence in passing this course... passing... not talking about getting higher distinctions or anything, i just want to pass... and that itself, is not in sight at all...

Thus, I'm scared... and I'm very unused to this much amount of work that I need to put in, in order to survive uni here... I'm scared, that my scholarship may be compromised, if I do fail the course... I'm afraid, that this failure, might taint my qualifications for life... In bottom line, I'm scared to fail...

I'm embarrased, that now that it's already week ten, I'm still struggling to understand week one's notes... I've lost my confidence, in getting through this... I'm so depressed, and stressed out because of this...

=/

On the other hand, went to city again, to meet up with the group for my management research project... doing some research on the ethical differences between America and Indonesia... Pics will come later, when I have the time and mood to post them... on Still Snaps, of course... but here's one of them:

me slacking off, while Fiony discusses stuff with Kris
Pic taken by Muzi

The Day before Ramadan and the First Day

First of all, I'd like to wish all my muslim friends a very happy Ramadan, and selamat berpuasa =)
I just had mi goreng for sahur, but at least i cooked rice, eggs and veggies (tried szechuan today) for break fast at 5.50 PM ;)

Anyway, yesterday was another eventful day =) Lots of goofing around in the morning on MSN, complete with on the spot self made poems :P This one is by Charley about me, and that's the poem that triggered the creation of all sorts of poems, good, bad, and naughty xD

Oh her name is Ayin

She may be cryin

but inside shes a lion

insult her n you'll be fryin

possibly diein

but her shoe laces? she cant tie'em

Being glued to the PC for all sorts of funny poems they came up, it was already 10.40 AM when I rushed out to meet up with Lachlan and Jozz...

From left: Lachlan, Jozz and Me
















Lachlan was already waiting for me at Central station, and we just chit chat while he finished up his breakfast from Hungry Jacks (which is literally Burger King). Little did we know that Jozz was already there as well, as she arrived early. We were supposed to meet at 11.30 AM, and I knew that Lachlan will arrive aat 11.10 AM, that's why I left early...

It's our first meeting with Jozz, and my second meeting with Lachlan, but definitely not the last ;) After meeting up with Jozz as well, we took the train to North Sydney Station, where I'll be meeting Shereen and Tetsuo (Tet, Shereen's bf) for lunch.

From left: Shereen and me
















More pics on Still Snaps, as usual :P
So the five of us ate at a Malaysian restaurant near the station... I had chicken rice, it was SO good! Just like the one at home... but i liked Jozz's satay better! xD Will definitely go back there again one day

After lunch, we walked around, to the harbour, where I started attacking them with my camera... as usual :D Tottaly scenic... Then we walked through the theme park, towards the train station to head back to Central. But along the way, we encountered a flea market ^^ So we girls went through the market, while Lachlan and Tet went to the church while we shop.. hehehe... we didn't buy anything anyway :P

After that, it was time for Tet to head back to his church for some activity or something, Shereen, Lachlan, Jozz and I took a train back... Shereen got down one stop before Central to go back home, so it's just the three of us left, the Neopians :D

Back at Central, we just crossed the road and sat down on the grass on Hyde Park (i think)... another chilling session, where we just talk and joked and fight (they confiscated my digicam) =P

Jozz had to go off at 4 PM, so Lachlan and I walked her back to Central and we met her mum =D She's tall!

After that, Lachlan and I decided to take in a movie... hahaha... man... it was ok =) then we had dinner, and Lachlan took the 7.18 PM train back to Penrith... I took the bus home, and reached my room around 8 PM =)

A long day, but definitely enjoyable! Looking forward to meet up with all of you again =)

The party, from left: Jozz, Lachlan, Tet and Shereen... (I'm the cameraperson this time) =P

Post Graduation =)

It's been a week since I last took off after my midsession test for microeconomics and headed home to Malaysia

On the way home, I had three seats all to myself... muahahaha... but the annoying family in front of me.... ugh.... it's dark, we want to sleep, the plane lights are off... and they just had to take numerous pics on the plane with flash, and i just had to shield myself from the blinding light

And they keep standing up... All the time... meh :P

On the way back, when I went to my seat, there was this old makcik sitting on it, and her son trying to pack their stuff to put on the overhead compartment... when i told him she's sitting on my seat, and clarified it by pointing to the diagram that shows that my number is the seat next to the window, not his mom's... he just said hold on, and just continued to pack his stuff (which was a lot), holding up the traffic of people wanting to fo to their seats, and only when he finished packing, he asked his mother to move out, so that I can get in... :K

Besides that, I felt like the makcik keeps glancing at me, and my tv, probably because she doesn't know how to operate hers... as i watch "she's the man" and laugh at funny moments, she'd turn her head and look at me, bewildered :P

Luckily I was skinny, because her arm kept coming over to my seat :P



Anyway, graduation was awesome =) Felt truly happy and bewildered to meet all my ex-unimates again... and one lecturer...

Only sad and dissapointing thing, is that after we exited the hall, most of my mates dissapeared... almost all of them, in fact... thus, the small number of photos, which will be available on Still Snaps... That was pretty dissapointing, as one of the reasons I flew back was to celebrate this joyful moment with them... but oh well... at least i get to do some shopping as well ;) (hugs new jeans, t-shirt and maggi) :D



The reason why this post is late, is because I had so much work to do, especially researching on Richard Branson for a presentation on Tuesday... plus, there were tutorials (which i actually did, this time, only to find out i did the wrong questions) and now i'm researching Business Ethics for my group research project... Mid session recess finally started, but I have to put in a lot of effort to catch up with my actuarial studies... trying out one question during the tutorial, really made me realize, that my brain is so damn rusty from differentiation, integrals and all those basic stuff... yikes... plus there's the bnm stuff to scan and send...



Was also involved in a little drama of my own online... regarding friends and trust... and i'm not gonna say much, since it's a very long story... and yeah, it made me cry again (who ever thought Naz could cry) on Wednesday morning... but one thing for sure, I fully trust Avais, Sharon, Bram, Helen, Steven, Stephen (Stevo), and Charley... You guys are truly the most amazing people I've met online, and never failed to put a smile on my face, everytime you guys log onto MSN, and always hear me out during my outbursts and ranting, without putting me down, accepting me for who I am, and understanding my rantings, tho you may not always agree, but you guys still make me feel special, and also make me accept myself, and erase away my fears... give me advice to do the right stuff (like not skipping classes, lol) ;) I will always always cherish your friendships... I love you guys so much =) No matter what others think, no matter if their opinions differ... My opinion about you guys, will never change. Neither will our friendship.


Tomorrow I'll be going to town, tho... meeting up with Shereen, and bringing along Lachlan AND Jozz!! yeah!! we'll finally be able to meet =) (neopians) =P

RESTLESS

I CAN'T WAIT TO GRADUATE IN UiTM!!!!!!!!


http://www.konvokesyen.uitm.edu.my/

*goes back to studying for economics test*

Sudah pukul 11.33 malam... ahad

Selang beberapa hari aku tak tulis apa-apa... Saja terfikir kali ni nak tulis dalam bahasa melayu... Hanya enam hari lagi, untuk kita sama-sama meraikan hari konvokesyen di UiTM Shah Alam... Tak sabar betul aku nak balik!!!

Memang cara aku tulis ni, macam... skema sikit... hahaha, susah betul nak tulis... kali terakhir aku tulis dalam BM adalah semasa aku tulis karangan masa di temubual di BNM... Sejak hari tu, aku tak dengar lagi berita dari mereka... Hm...

Esok ada ujian akauns... Ah, malas betul aku nak baca... Mula-mula, subjek ni antara subjek yang aku susah nak faham... konsepnya semua berbeza dengan apa yang kita belajar dulu... sini lebih rumit... pastu, ada tambah lagi jenis akaun yang berlainan... urgh....

Lagi satu, sini memang sibuk... mula-mula sebelum aku datang sini, aku ingatkan tempat ni relax sikit... rupanya terbalik.. hahaha, aku sendiri susah nak ikut kelas kat sini... dah berapa kelas dah aku tak pergi... untuk kelas aktuari lagilah aku tak tau.... sampai sekarang tak pernah faham apa yang diorang ajar....

Masa pun pantas berlalu... Tak sempat pun, aku nak cuba mengingati apa yang aku telah belajar sebelum ni... Tak sabar pun nak cuti... Memang susah... Sampai sekarang aku fikir nak lulus je, subjek tu... itupun tak tau boleh ke tak...

Selepas peperiksaan akauns esok petang, baru lega sikit... pastu ujian ekonomi pulak hari jumaat... itupun bolehlah... subjek yang paling aku selesa dengan....

Ah...

Khas untuk Steven Vermeeren...

I received awesome news, and I don't know who to share it with

Today, I woke up, feeling so refreshed after a long day... and spent the morning reading a chapter on Leadership, to prepare it for my group discussion meeting later with Alex and Diana...

Internet this morning was being crappy, so couldn't do much research online... so nothing interesting happened in the morning, had lunch around 12 PM... then went to PASS Class for ACCT1511... it was full :K had to sit on the floor... i went to that class last week at the same time, and there was barely any people when i entered the room... then it's ACCT1511 lecture after that...

Then, it's one hour to kill, before the meeting.. so i just went back home, because i was hungry and wanted to have a snack... nicely slurping something that's like a maggi in cup, when the gmail notifier popped up with a new e-mail

Nazreen,

Would appreciate if you coulod contact me soonest possible. This is
regarding your application for Bank Negara's scholarship.

I panicked xD

I ran downstairs to get the house phone and use my calling card... but i don't know how to use funny phones here, and i had difficulty getting the dial tone... only then with the help of my housemate, i realized that i coudln't get a dial tone, because my landlord was on the phone!!! XD

After finally finding my Maxis Sim Card, I called BNM right away... nervous, excited, jumpy...

He answered...

And told me that my scholarship application is successfull!

I was so happy... I wanted to tell someone, wanted to tell the world! But I didn't want to gloat/brag, I just wanted to share this happy news, with people who'd be happy for me, and not spite me...

So the first place I went... online... posted on the guild board, and the people who were talking to me on MSN, including myuu... and then e-mailed mom... then with the sim card still in, i called my dad :D

But it wasn't enough, i was still excited and hyper, and most of my online friends who I cherish wasn't online yet... Anyhow, had to meet up with Diana and Alex :) with a happy thought

Another long day~

Another hectic week + weekend... My tuesdays are always hectic :S

MGMT1102 test this morning, then my ECON1101 report due after the test, and there's tutorial homework due at 2 PM

In between, two meetings: one with Diana from Germany and Alex from somewhere and didn't turn up xD then a lunch meeting with Kris and Muzi... Both meetings were to discuss MGMT1102 projects, one about Ethics and Social Responsibility, the other on Leadership...

Then after the tutorial class which ended at three, met up again, with Kris and Fiony (also on the MGMT1102 project)

Next, I had to go to a travel agent, and see how much it may cost to purchase a ticket here, from Kuala Lumpur to Sydney (I already have my ticket to go home, just not to come back here) :P

Now I'm home ^^

Think I did okay for the test, and ACCT1511 quiz came back, got 10/18, and i'm so happy because i passed XD

Such a difference, from how it was like in Malaysia... I'd aim to get full marks, or at least the best in the class, and here I am, in Australia, hoping for a pass... :P

Why I avoid cooking

Yesterday was nice... managed to complete my economics report despite procrastinating so much... Now I just have to proof read it and refine the report.

Today, I decided that I'll cook rice and a couple of dishes... I cooked rice enough for two meals, so that I can make fried rice again, omelette with onions, and stir fried veggies... It was a nice meal, and I felt very bloated... then when i went back to the kitchen... seeing all the pots and pans and stuff i used to prepare and all... just made me feel tired... urgh...

Fried rice is easier. At least I just use one plate for everything...

And it seems my carrots have 'expired'

One progress this week, is that i only had instant noodles just one time. And that was because the meal i had in McDonalds on that day, wasn't enough to last me the night. I seldom go to McDs, but a friend wanted to meet up with me for business purposes... Which I will elaborate later...

I also received a note about three days ago, from Jim, the owner of the house who lives here as well, that he accidentally switched the power off to the fridge that I share with my housemate. So there goes all my frozen food, but he said he'll reimburse the damages, so that's a good thing...

Missed today's grocery shopping trip, because I don't have much to buy, and I didn't want to wake up xD

Spring is here, finally! Officially, i mean... went to the dance class yesterday not wearing a jacket ^^ I've even chucked my heater into the cupboard... Nice weather we have now!!!

Yesterday's dance class was a lil funny... At least, I enjoyed it... this time, only the guy was around to teach, and he gave us a nice break from ballroom dancing and thought us the basics for cha-cha-cha... that was awesome! Kris was having a lot of difficulty with the waltz, tho, because yesterday, we did so much turns and changes, that he kinda got disoriented... At least this time, there's only one extra girl, unlike last week...

Anyway, back to the McD's meeting, Mas met up with me, with a guy from India, and as I nibble on my Filet O Fish, that guy gave me a presentation on Amway and NetworkTwentyOne... some sort of multi-level marketing... From what I could understand, it's like BonusLink, where I just shop at this online thing, and the more I spend, the more I get back... and by referring ppl to it, i get more back again, with bonus... I think it's a way to get more ppl to buy from them... more and more, and loyal customers, who eyes the benefits....

There's a seminar/event on this thing that I'm supposed to attend (paid 20 bucks for the ticket after the presentation) but after thinking through, I'm just not really interested... basically because I prefer to go shopping in malls, rather than online... And I just don't want to go out to town at night... Next time, I will be forward enough to say No on the spot, regardless if it'll offend my friend or not...

Anyhow, seems like a lot of business going direct to consumers... Telstra called me on my mobile phone (I'm under Vodafone), and offered me a package... more like a two year contract, so that I use Telstra, and for that, they'll give me a new phone, 300 AUD worth of credit, and some other benefits to go with it... They said that my phone number was once under Telstra and sold off, and now they're hoping to buy back the number, and get back some business i guess... so in this case, i think they just want business and customers bound by contract, so we may not stray away... sounds like a good deal to me, actually, since i don't really care what telecom network i use, but most ppl here use Optus or Voda... so we'll see....