No Strings Attached

Two days before the year ends.

I'm beginning to wonder... What have I done, what am I doing, and what am I gonna do...

This month has been another very trying month for me... moving, icing, online drama, adapting, internet, financially... But at this moment, what I do feel like doing, is breaking free of everything...

I don't want to be attached, don't want to be bounded, don't want to continue anything... Just be free, on my own... This both applies to online, and offline...

Frankly, I don't know how to achieve this... I care too much of what other people think.. as some say, I worry too much, I'm afraid of making people upset at me

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately... especially about my relationships - friends, family, Zaid... I'm actually questioning myself, why? Am I really doing what I want? Am I happy? Or is it just a facade?

I don't know...

The End of 2006

• ► 2006 (53)

• ► 2005 (126)

And wow, I really got lazy this year... hahaha... I'm actually amazed I posted so much last year... So much has happened... Online and offline... And perhaps it's the time to reflect, and learn from mistakes...

When things happen, they happen.. tough, no use worrying about it... So my dad says. I spent a lot or most of my leisure time ever since I arrived in Aussie online, making friends, caring for them... chatting with them... I cared. I trusted. I loved. But now... All the things I did that I thought was being a good person and such, seems to backfire... So now... I have learnt my lesson... which is, to shut up :P

Lol, anyways, things did happen. And it did hurt. So at this rate, quitting seems very very welcoming.. true that it may also seem like running away from problems, but at the same time, why cause the problems in the first place?

Anyhow, I've moved to Barker Apartments for almost a month, and I think life in UNSW will only get better :) Thanks to BNM. New housemates (at least all girls), no arguing couples o.o, etc... Well, I do hope it gets better :D *kicks self* xD


On another note~ I've signed up for Mandarin 1A class!!! wheee! scheduled to start on the 8th of Jan :D for 3 weeks

Fixed Blog

LOL!! seems like i disabled some kind of settings in the Settings page... well, i think it's fixed now... at least, i think it is :P

Anyhow... it's about time I revive this blog again :D

But now, I'm falling asleep, so next time then...

Btw, thank you, Steven!

A Test Post

To see if it will work correctly when i post this. This post SHOULD have 3 paragraphs.

This onwards should be paragraph #2.

And here is the third one... So Steven is helping me solve this annoying problem.. let's see if it works ;)

Blog Skins/Templates

Well... since I'm kinda cutting down on neo, I have some free time to finally manage my blogged... However... It's a mess.. I don't what is wrong with it.

I just changed to the new blogger, which seems nice and fancy to me, but My posts are all jumbled up, no new paragraphs, unlike how when I write up the post.

Plus, I can't access this blog using IE, but only using Firefox... ahh =/ no idea

Bloggerrr

I have a lot of free time.. But still, i'm lazy... Plus, I haven't gotten broadband here yet.. internet is pricey.. 4.4c perMB... at this rate i'm using internet just to chat on neopets and on msn, i'm already using up at about 5 aud per day... X.X and my room has never had the telephone connected ever before, so it would cost me 299 aud just to create a new line, just so that I can subscribe to broadband at around 50 aud per month... then there's line rental at 20 aud/month

eep... i guess it's still cheaper then spending about 150 aud per month on uniweb and not even able to use my webcam and such...

and tnt is still being a pain... no reply on my frozen account, and they keep leaving me hanging on customer support

Blog Stil on Hold :P

I'm still lazy, plus, Zaid's around =P

Briefly:

Sat for finals, finished finals, moved to Barker Apartments-

Left my guild, rejoined later, then today, i got frozen-

Went shopping, tried nice chocolate, still need a lot more to buy-

Anyhow, blog still on hold =P *pokes Nads hard*

Blog On Hold

Reasons:

#1 I'm lazy
#2 Exams
#3 I'm more occupied with other things than posting in my blog
#4 I'm just plain lazy

A month before I came to Aussie...

REVERSE CHRONOLOGICAL ORDER as I'm too lazy to shift the pics around :P SO read/view from bottom to up :D
























One of my most proudest moment... And one of my favorite picture too.. Me and my mom, after the prize awarding ceremony... Nobody expected me to win a single medal, and that the best position they tought i could get was 4th... *Hugs silver medal*



















Singing the State song... if only i won the gold medal... hahaha



















Me, Ain, and Vivian...



















This is the whole sailing team from my state =) Note that I'm the only girl in the team xD Can you find me? ;)



















Finally launching the boat into the sea~!



















When the boats are ready, and there's no wind... This is what we do... :D
























Almost done with boat preparation! :D I'm so tanned after sailing and training so much xD



















Still preparing the boat... my teammate is preparing his boat next to me =D
























Long ago, I wouldn't be able to lift up nor balance the mast with the sail on it... and now i can! :D















Chilling out, and taking pics xD



















More of the team =)



















Me, my teammate (Hafizi) and coach (Sahril, who's only 2 yrs older than me)... Notice that my hair was very long... I had it cut just after his camp =D



















During athlete's preparation camp, organized by our state :) My coach, teammate and me, with our State Flag (Selangor). This is the Laser Radial Team, and the other sailors you'll see, is the Optimist Team... Optimist if only four sailors under the age of 15 :P

A month before I went to Aussie, I was involved in the Malaysian Games, and won a silver medal in the Laser Radial Ladies category =)

Is there something wrong with my template?

For some reason, it doesn't come out in paragraphs anymore... TO me, that is... I wonder why :S

Anyway, there's only one more week of lecture, then it'll be finals... I've a lot of reading to do for Managing Across Cultures, and Microeconomics 1... Then need lots of practice for Accounting and Financial Management 1B

Yikes...

Anyway, Selamat Hari Raya again :) It's definitely some sort of experience not celebrating with my family, but it's alright :)

Masih tengah mencari tempat yang baru untuk tinggal... Tak selesa duduk sini... Tak sabar nak pindah =)