No Strings Attached

Two days before the year ends.

I'm beginning to wonder... What have I done, what am I doing, and what am I gonna do...

This month has been another very trying month for me... moving, icing, online drama, adapting, internet, financially... But at this moment, what I do feel like doing, is breaking free of everything...

I don't want to be attached, don't want to be bounded, don't want to continue anything... Just be free, on my own... This both applies to online, and offline...

Frankly, I don't know how to achieve this... I care too much of what other people think.. as some say, I worry too much, I'm afraid of making people upset at me

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately... especially about my relationships - friends, family, Zaid... I'm actually questioning myself, why? Am I really doing what I want? Am I happy? Or is it just a facade?

I don't know...