It's been about a year since this song came out, I remember watching it at wh's house for the Australian Idol's finals where this song was introduced. I like both Jessica's and Damien's version. And now it's just constantly in my head, as I somewhat just realized what it meant, and it feels so meaningful :)
Here we are,
Shooting stars,
Renting time in someone else's space
So unsure
Afraid to fall
I'm standing here
A little scared
But I don't care
'Cos this kind of moment, is only on loan and
I wanna remember the look in your eyes
When it's all over I want you to know that I was with you when I
Had the night of my life(X2)
So don't let go
You never know
Maybe your whole life's about to change
So let's hold on
Until it's gone
Nothing's made to last forever
Who knows whether
This kind of moment is only on loan and
Sometimes you don't know until it passes you by
And when it's all over I want you to know that I was with you when I
Had the night of my life
Maybe this whole thing comes right down to faith,
And every choice that we think that we make
Has put us right here together
today(X3)
'Cause this kind of moment
Is only on loan and,
It won't be too long till it leaves us behind
And when it's all over I want you to know that I was with you when I
Had the night of my life,
The night of my life,
The night of my life
Damien Leith - night of my life
Sleep... Study... Sleep... Study ;o
So, I fell asleep instead of studying o_o
*is bad* x.x ahhhh
I'm stuck at time series anyway, at the part where we start analysing the estimated noise and implementing it and what-not.
So I'm gonna leave it at there for now, and start studying simulation instead o_o
ikmisje
*is bad* x.x ahhhh
I'm stuck at time series anyway, at the part where we start analysing the estimated noise and implementing it and what-not.
So I'm gonna leave it at there for now, and start studying simulation instead o_o
ikmisje
Ew ;(
Facebook under maintainence, was playing scrabble when got logged out.. bleh sounds like getting iced on neo rather... oh, and portal is dead too.
So decided to blog.. taking a lil break which seems to turn out longer, as waiting for hc to come back from jogging... and Sindy's next door cleaning up...
and here I am online...
At least I've actually studied a bit today, despite my mind still at unease *shrugs*
Anyway, a little shout out to some guys:
Zaid, thanks for calling, and I'm kinda glad to be able to talk to you about that stuff, and patch things up properly...
Justin, haha, I had a fun conversation with you about guys
Sean, thanks for stopping by, no more excuses, yeah? :P thanks again
Steven, good luck with your Java assignment, miss you
Wei Hon, sorry for not informing you earlier that I couldn't make it.. wasn't feeling myself at all
Thiam Foo, haha, how funny we're gonna team up against hc *hides*
That's about it for now~
And just for the heck of it...
Current playlist on my computer:
So decided to blog.. taking a lil break which seems to turn out longer, as waiting for hc to come back from jogging... and Sindy's next door cleaning up...
and here I am online...
At least I've actually studied a bit today, despite my mind still at unease *shrugs*
Anyway, a little shout out to some guys:
Zaid, thanks for calling, and I'm kinda glad to be able to talk to you about that stuff, and patch things up properly...
Justin, haha, I had a fun conversation with you about guys
Sean, thanks for stopping by, no more excuses, yeah? :P thanks again
Steven, good luck with your Java assignment, miss you
Wei Hon, sorry for not informing you earlier that I couldn't make it.. wasn't feeling myself at all
Thiam Foo, haha, how funny we're gonna team up against hc *hides*
That's about it for now~
And just for the heck of it...
Current playlist on my computer:
- Extreme - More than words
- Savage Garden - Truly Madly Deeply
- Oasis - Wonderwall
- Oasis - Stand By Me
- Oasis - Be Here Now
- Savage Garden - I Knew I Loved You
- Oasis - The Girl In The Dirty Shirt
- Oasis - All Around The World
- Mikuni Shimokawa - Tomorrow
Contradiction
Basically I kinda rant a bit in my last post. I was kinda feeling it again this morning...
Then as usual, it haunted me onto the day, causing me to be unfocused again...
Well, it struck me, that my ideas and feelings contradicts each other. It's like, I say something different, but I want something different. Or just wish it.
I still hold onto a lot on hope, and dreams, yet I tell myself not to.
I prefer to give, but I dream to receive.
Sometimes I tell people no, but deep inside my heart, I say yes.
Wonderwall~
Today is gonna be the day
That they're gonna throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you gotta do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do about you now
Backbeat the word was on the street
That the fire in your heart is out
I'm sure you've heard it all before
But you never really had a doubt
I don't believe that anybody feels
The way I do about you now
And all the roads we have to walk along are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would
Like to say to you
I don't know how
~Oasis
I'm starting to love their songs
Then as usual, it haunted me onto the day, causing me to be unfocused again...
Well, it struck me, that my ideas and feelings contradicts each other. It's like, I say something different, but I want something different. Or just wish it.
I still hold onto a lot on hope, and dreams, yet I tell myself not to.
I prefer to give, but I dream to receive.
Sometimes I tell people no, but deep inside my heart, I say yes.
Wonderwall~
Today is gonna be the day
That they're gonna throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you gotta do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do about you now
Backbeat the word was on the street
That the fire in your heart is out
I'm sure you've heard it all before
But you never really had a doubt
I don't believe that anybody feels
The way I do about you now
And all the roads we have to walk along are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would
Like to say to you
I don't know how
~Oasis
I'm starting to love their songs
Seperti hati ditikam
Kadang-kadang, rasa sakit hati sangat. Tapi memang salah sendiri.. Sendiri yang membuat pilihan. Adakan pilihan itu memang salah ke? Tak juga, memang pilihan itu diingini, tetapi adakah masanya kurang sesuai?
Entahlah, bila seronok tu, seronok sangat. Tapi bila geram tu, sakit sangat. Susahlah, rasa macam diri sendiri tidak difahami.
Be Here Now~
Kicking up a storm,
From the day that I was born,
Sing a song to me,
One from Let It Be,
Open up your eyes get a grip on yourself inside!
~Oasis
Entahlah, bila seronok tu, seronok sangat. Tapi bila geram tu, sakit sangat. Susahlah, rasa macam diri sendiri tidak difahami.
Be Here Now~
Kicking up a storm,
From the day that I was born,
Sing a song to me,
One from Let It Be,
Open up your eyes get a grip on yourself inside!
~Oasis
High Context vs Low Context
Ever wonder the reason when one seems to avoid you? Or when one ignores you?
It's hard to understand people, since there's so many unique people around. When I see friends, who seem down, I always wonder what am I supposed to do. It freaks me out thinking that am I the one causing the problem? But how can I know?
I've never actually been good with emotions. When I see a friend that is down, my first reaction would be to avoid. And my reasoning is fear. I fear that I would do the wrong things, or do things that I myself hate when done unto me. So how can I be a friend in need?
This often happens in a much high context culture... The opposite end of low context cultures where they speak more direct.
I'm not assertive.. haha, I have a lot of high context, I guess, but in my situation, it just don't work as well. So sometimes I just say it how it is (usually blurting out stuff when I'm not thinking, haha). How I'd like it to be. And also hope that by being honest, others would understand me better.
Haha, as if :P
Basically I won't know if you won't/don't tell me. And from that, I guess you can't expect anything when you don't know it.
While I do pick up hints pretty easily, it just leaves me speculating, and I don't want to jump onto the wrong conclusions.
But this is inevitable in a more high context society... So speaking up may sometimes hurt or offend.
Don't you just love the complexity of humans and human behaviour? :P What is it actually that we fear that prevents us from speaking up?
*shuts up for now*
It's hard to understand people, since there's so many unique people around. When I see friends, who seem down, I always wonder what am I supposed to do. It freaks me out thinking that am I the one causing the problem? But how can I know?
I've never actually been good with emotions. When I see a friend that is down, my first reaction would be to avoid. And my reasoning is fear. I fear that I would do the wrong things, or do things that I myself hate when done unto me. So how can I be a friend in need?
This often happens in a much high context culture... The opposite end of low context cultures where they speak more direct.
I'm not assertive.. haha, I have a lot of high context, I guess, but in my situation, it just don't work as well. So sometimes I just say it how it is (usually blurting out stuff when I'm not thinking, haha). How I'd like it to be. And also hope that by being honest, others would understand me better.
Haha, as if :P
Basically I won't know if you won't/don't tell me. And from that, I guess you can't expect anything when you don't know it.
While I do pick up hints pretty easily, it just leaves me speculating, and I don't want to jump onto the wrong conclusions.
But this is inevitable in a more high context society... So speaking up may sometimes hurt or offend.
Don't you just love the complexity of humans and human behaviour? :P What is it actually that we fear that prevents us from speaking up?
- The feeling of guilt?
- Possible loss of friendship(s)?
- Chain hating?
- Discomfort being close to that person in the future?
- Being proven wrong?
- -Insert reason here-
*shuts up for now*
Now I Remember...
Why I did not take up computer science.. hahahaha
Despite me liking to sit in front of the computer the whole day, my general knowledge on computer technology is still small.
Then I remembered in my first semester back in UiTM, we had to do a course on Visual Basic 6.0 Programming... and I remember my first reaction too... "Eek! I hate programming (and accounting)!"
Back then, my perspective of doing programming is like a lot of memorizing (maybe it's due to the bad experience I had in school with my IT lecturer that made me drop the subject, and the fact that a lot of my schoolmates did badly in that subject).
Yet, I did relatively well in that course. Plus, I enjoyed it too, hahahaha. A lot of logical thinking involved, and it's pretty fun. Although I used kinda a bunch of shortcuts to make my program work, that is not probable in actual situations. (Using damn many IF statements xD)
Entering UNSW, I totally forget whatever I did back then in Visual Basic (how I wished I remember, since we use it a lot in Excel :K). And my liking to sit in front of the computer continues to grow, as my knowledge on computers in general. Heh, I spend much of my free time at the computer, and I'm not complaining, I'm happy =) Just that it's not good for me.. hahahaha
Anyhow, now I'm taking programming again this semester, and still, it's my favourite course that I'm doing right now. So far, I've been doing quite well (but not relatively, since everyone is doing well too). And right now we're at our final assignment for the programming, and I'm stumped trying to figure out the last part... RAWRRR... This is when I recall why I avoided programming.. hahaha, because there's just so much detail involved... but hey.. doesn't mean I won't do it at all =) It's still fun, still my favourite course. But I wouldn't want to stare at the computer figuring my head off as a career... or maybe...
Now, why the heck won't my data steps work? xD
Despite me liking to sit in front of the computer the whole day, my general knowledge on computer technology is still small.
Then I remembered in my first semester back in UiTM, we had to do a course on Visual Basic 6.0 Programming... and I remember my first reaction too... "Eek! I hate programming (and accounting)!"
Back then, my perspective of doing programming is like a lot of memorizing (maybe it's due to the bad experience I had in school with my IT lecturer that made me drop the subject, and the fact that a lot of my schoolmates did badly in that subject).
Yet, I did relatively well in that course. Plus, I enjoyed it too, hahahaha. A lot of logical thinking involved, and it's pretty fun. Although I used kinda a bunch of shortcuts to make my program work, that is not probable in actual situations. (Using damn many IF statements xD)
Entering UNSW, I totally forget whatever I did back then in Visual Basic (how I wished I remember, since we use it a lot in Excel :K). And my liking to sit in front of the computer continues to grow, as my knowledge on computers in general. Heh, I spend much of my free time at the computer, and I'm not complaining, I'm happy =) Just that it's not good for me.. hahahaha
Anyhow, now I'm taking programming again this semester, and still, it's my favourite course that I'm doing right now. So far, I've been doing quite well (but not relatively, since everyone is doing well too). And right now we're at our final assignment for the programming, and I'm stumped trying to figure out the last part... RAWRRR... This is when I recall why I avoided programming.. hahaha, because there's just so much detail involved... but hey.. doesn't mean I won't do it at all =) It's still fun, still my favourite course. But I wouldn't want to stare at the computer figuring my head off as a career... or maybe...
Now, why the heck won't my data steps work? xD
It doesn't get any easier
SO.
I messed up my time series, especially the trend and seasonality analysis.. *hides* and submitted a half-done assignment...
Ah well, better than nothing =)
Because of that though, I missed like, 75% of my classes/lectures this week o.o *hides again*
Bal-chan and her friend stayed over at my place doing the assignment.. It's awesome to have company, but I was so slack, I didn't do much to help.. sorry ya :$
But I still love being here ^_^ I may have trodden on the education/career path that I do not fancy, but there's always a reason for everything, and things work out in their own way =)
At least, I'm heading towards a path that I won't come to regret, and I'm thankful for someone ;* and some people ^^
I'll be there :)
I messed up my time series, especially the trend and seasonality analysis.. *hides* and submitted a half-done assignment...
Ah well, better than nothing =)
Because of that though, I missed like, 75% of my classes/lectures this week o.o *hides again*
Bal-chan and her friend stayed over at my place doing the assignment.. It's awesome to have company, but I was so slack, I didn't do much to help.. sorry ya :$
But I still love being here ^_^ I may have trodden on the education/career path that I do not fancy, but there's always a reason for everything, and things work out in their own way =)
At least, I'm heading towards a path that I won't come to regret, and I'm thankful for someone ;* and some people ^^
I'll be there :)
Computer Science. xD
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Hari Raya at Malaysian Hall, Sydney 2007
The Malaysians of Unit 29, Barker Apartments ;DMore pictures HERE
Now I'm stuck doing assignments again xD Piak.. Anyone familiar with matlab or maple or something that can help me solve linear equations with 8-9 unknowns? xD
跳舞！Selamat Hari Raya!
Friday was our last:
day of fasting, before Hari Raya 2007
ballroom dance class for Session 2, 2007, so dressed up :o
And here are the sneak peeks :o Both taken on the same night.. hehehe
day of fasting, before Hari Raya 2007
ballroom dance class for Session 2, 2007, so dressed up :o
And here are the sneak peeks :o Both taken on the same night.. hehehe
这个星期很忙
Tuesday actl quiz, flunked again :P
Wednesday 1.4k words review essay due, received maths assignment back :o
also celebrated wh's birthday that night, but pics in his camera, getting 'em tomorrow
Thursday lecture, tutorial, group assignment work, then shopping to get stuff for my dress up tomorrow o.o
so Friday,
mandarin class, movie (bwahahaha), dance dress up..
then Saturday,
RAYA! brining Sindy to the Malaysian hall in the baju kurung... kekekeke
Selamat Hari Raya Everyone =) Maaf Zahir dan Batin
Wednesday 1.4k words review essay due, received maths assignment back :o
also celebrated wh's birthday that night, but pics in his camera, getting 'em tomorrow
Thursday lecture, tutorial, group assignment work, then shopping to get stuff for my dress up tomorrow o.o
so Friday,
mandarin class, movie (bwahahaha), dance dress up..
then Saturday,
RAYA! brining Sindy to the Malaysian hall in the baju kurung... kekekeke
Selamat Hari Raya Everyone =) Maaf Zahir dan Batin
2005 Miami U. Cheezies a cappella: Facebook Song
Funny song xD Awesome voice! And it's stuck in my head now :o
我喜欢喝茶
Man, this pic is sooo cute! I remember before I finished school, I always told myself that if I stayed on my own when I'm studying, I wanna keep a cat. But I end up staying in an apartment again in Aussie.. ahahaha so no cat for me :(
Happy Birthday Hui Chien :)
祝你生日快乐！
I hope you had a wonderful birthday =)
Sorry I couldn't find any gifts x.x *hugs*
Btw, a BIG HUGE thanks also to Sindy, Audrey, Sheera, Amy, Wei Hon and everyone who came for the surprise party :) I'm so grateful to you all ^^
0830 - Shopping with Wei Hon for the food stuff and such for the party
1200 - Went with Hui Chien to Bondi Jn Mall
1545 - Movie: Hairspray with Hui Chien and Sindy
1915 - Arrived home with the party surprise
2345 - Ice Cream @ McD's
From left: Wei Hon, Sindy, Hui Chien, Ayin
More pictures HERE
I hope you had a wonderful birthday =)
Sorry I couldn't find any gifts x.x *hugs*
Btw, a BIG HUGE thanks also to Sindy, Audrey, Sheera, Amy, Wei Hon and everyone who came for the surprise party :) I'm so grateful to you all ^^
0830 - Shopping with Wei Hon for the food stuff and such for the party
1200 - Went with Hui Chien to Bondi Jn Mall
1545 - Movie: Hairspray with Hui Chien and Sindy
1915 - Arrived home with the party surprise
2345 - Ice Cream @ McD's
From left: Wei Hon, Sindy, Hui Chien, AyinMore pictures HERE
Thank you...
I love you dad.
Thank you so much for calling me up and help me sort my mess out.
Ayin.
xxx
So yeah, new skin.. still waking up damn early even with late classes... Sometimes my body just jolts awake at about 6 am...
And since to me it feels too early to do things like studying, so I just went around scouting for a blog skin that is different...
xxx
Everything feels so quiet. I keep checking and stealing glances at my phone, messages, e-mails, inbox, like I'm expecting something, more like hoping for something, but I don't know why.
I don't know what I'm doing...
Thank you so much for calling me up and help me sort my mess out.
Ayin.
xxx
So yeah, new skin.. still waking up damn early even with late classes... Sometimes my body just jolts awake at about 6 am...
And since to me it feels too early to do things like studying, so I just went around scouting for a blog skin that is different...
xxx
Everything feels so quiet. I keep checking and stealing glances at my phone, messages, e-mails, inbox, like I'm expecting something, more like hoping for something, but I don't know why.
I don't know what I'm doing...
Another Down Time
There's more to it that it meets the eye.
And I'm just on the verge of giving up.
I guess I'll be quiet for some while.
Not like anyone would care as much.
And I'm just on the verge of giving up.
I guess I'll be quiet for some while.
Not like anyone would care as much.
我不喜欢你。我不想再看你。
So yesterday was a public holiday: Labour Day for NSW, ACT and SA.
Despite that, I had Mandarin Class at 7-9 pm -.-
I was hoping to start on my work, but being in a holiday mood still, it just couldn't work out x.x So about 3pm ish, went over to wh's place to kill time, and since I needed to get out of my home from sitting still in front of the computer endlessly. Oh, there were other reasons too.
So about 6-ish went to break fast at sushi way.. stayed and ate until it was time to walk to class. For some reason I could sense a bit of like :@ in the house xD Oh well...
But highlight of the class was learning that phrase which is the title for this post :D Translating somewhat to:
I don't like you. I don't want to ever see you.
Harsh :D But I like 0:-)
Despite that, I had Mandarin Class at 7-9 pm -.-
I was hoping to start on my work, but being in a holiday mood still, it just couldn't work out x.x So about 3pm ish, went over to wh's place to kill time, and since I needed to get out of my home from sitting still in front of the computer endlessly. Oh, there were other reasons too.
So about 6-ish went to break fast at sushi way.. stayed and ate until it was time to walk to class. For some reason I could sense a bit of like :@ in the house xD Oh well...
But highlight of the class was learning that phrase which is the title for this post :D Translating somewhat to:
I don't like you. I don't want to ever see you.
Harsh :D But I like 0:-)
About Me
- Ayin
- Petaling Jaya, Selangor, Malaysia
- Liking a good challenge, physical activities such as sports, fitness; a bit on the lazy side when it comes to thinking games.
