Contradiction

Basically I kinda rant a bit in my last post. I was kinda feeling it again this morning...

Then as usual, it haunted me onto the day, causing me to be unfocused again...

Well, it struck me, that my ideas and feelings contradicts each other. It's like, I say something different, but I want something different. Or just wish it.

I still hold onto a lot on hope, and dreams, yet I tell myself not to.

I prefer to give, but I dream to receive.

Sometimes I tell people no, but deep inside my heart, I say yes.

Wonderwall~
Today is gonna be the day
That they're gonna throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you gotta do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do about you now

Backbeat the word was on the street
That the fire in your heart is out
I'm sure you've heard it all before
But you never really had a doubt
I don't believe that anybody feels
The way I do about you now

And all the roads we have to walk along are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would
Like to say to you
I don't know how
~Oasis

I'm starting to love their songs