I love weekends...

Back in Malaysia, I actually had a full time schedule... at the office during weekdays, then sailing on weekends... hardly had time for myself...

After I finished my internship, it was full time sailing... even on weekdays, to prepare for the games... which photos i've uploaded on Still Snaps...

Now, in Australia, my schedule is a mess :D At least, I'm sorting that out... With a nice new printer (but noisy) in my room, I managed to print out all my course notes, lectures and tutorials that I will be needing for this week... well.. almost :D just a couple more things to print, but i'll wait till morning... since it's late already....

Also rearranging my sleeping schedule... lately kept taking naps, especially after eating xD Had fried rice today, since I found my missing leftover rice in the other fridge, i made fried rice with one big onion, one big carrot (the smallest i could find, hehe) , garlic, and cabbage. Next time, I'll put less onions, less oil, more garlic, and maybe other stuff like eggs or beef or both or more =D



Well, it may not look so tasty, but hey, it's my first try! :D It smelled so good, and it tasted good... to me, at least :D most of the carrots are hidden underneath, tho...

When cooking the veges, especially onions, it smelled wonderful... Now that I finally pushed myself to cook one meal like this, i think i can do it again... i think :D

I've a presentation Tuesday, and I'm feeling quite happy about it, just for listening well in class... hahaha... the lecturer is good... I'll be presenting about tariffs on imported cars... a familiar subject ^^ maybe it's a good thing i didn't have advance standing for microeconomics... sometimes i do wish i can start from year one, instead of having advance standing... oh well, it gets me the scholarship ^^

Still no news from Bank Negara tho... even other candidates have not heard from them... even tho they said they'll notify both success and failures... I did receive some missed calls on my malaysian sim card that i don't recognize tho...

I'm seriously making a change... I have to... Else everything will even more chaotic :P

Some pics of me that I found rudy took, two-three days ago :D

FOOD!!!

Saturday morning grocery shopping

Total for 34 items $102.20

That's like, RM270? xD

I bought food and candy and drinks and food!!! I'm just so happy, because my fridge is stocked, my cupboard is filled... and we'll see how long these food can last me :D

Found my 'missing rice' in the main fridge, instead of the usual one... :P

Also today, sent my mom and brothers and aunt off at the airport... *hugs them tight* i'm gonna miss them....

Before that tho, big bro myuu slept over in my room last night, on my fleece blanket on the floor xD i wish i could make it more comfortable for him... gomen ne, nii chan

Landlord + wife having a lil gathering downstairs, which is fine, because i had dinner with Kris and Muzi... that was fun =) definitely will look forward to more outings with them

Uni, oh uni

Uni is hard... well, maybe not so, but to me, yeah... it's hard... this week, i realized that i just can't bring my study habits from malaysia... i have to change... i have to work harder...

Some people may know how laid back I was back in UiTM... how i always interact with the lecturer in class, clear up anything i don't understand... look at people's notes... how 'relaxed' i am...

But that won't work here... nope, it won't, and i just have to accept that and change =) I've already missed one test on purpose, and finally got the courage to approach my tutor... I'm always reluctant to approach people here, i don't know why, maybe it's just me being shy and scared, but it can't stay like this forever...

Tonight I was supposed to head to the city again, and stay over at mom's hotel... I know they're only here til Saturday, and that is approaching fast... but i can't help feeling that i'll lose a lot of time, to prepare for my microeconomics presentation next tuesday... if i go... i don't want to put myself in last week's position anymore... it's too nerve wrecking... i can't go through that anymore... so here i am, at home, with my microecons books on my desk, and me sketching demand and supply curves...

Time just passes by too quickly here, and I really need to start catching up, or i'll be left further behind... during my management class, i kinda listed how i felt at that time:-

alone, lagging behind, friendless, struggling, scared, nervous, worried, shy, unindependant, sad, sleepy, tense, sick, lazy, lethargic, lack of sleep, bored, homesick, unkempt, energyless, ashamed, low self-esteem

=(

It's so nice to get out from uni for awhile

Stayed with mom last night, in her hotel room in the city... nice place...

Sigh...

I can't do this... I can't... I really can't... I wish i could just give up... Forget the test... My essay's half done, and I ran out of ideas...

I don't even know if what I'm doing is right... I've only been here a month... Sounds like a pathetic excuse, and so much is needed to be done... Still trying to fit in... to make friends... I really don't know...

I'm hopeless, not independant... and definitely not adapting fast enough... and to be sick at a crucial time...

Srsly, I can't.... I can't... I really can't...

How inconvenient...

Wednesday, I shook the house because of non-stop coughing... and so... I went to see a doctor...

In her opinion, I'm suffering from Upper Respiratory Tract Infection (Acute) and was given Medical Leave till Friday

And that's how I screwed myself up in the early semester...

I already missed lectures on Monday due to that fainting incident, and so missed the monday actuarial lecture...

Wednesday I went to my one and only lecture for that day, and almost slept in the lecture...

Then I missed a load of lectures on Thursday, because I was feeling kinda tired and weak...

And now, I still have all the sickness that doesn't seem to be improving my mood, and with three assessments happening in the VERY VERY near future... *throws caution into the wind*

Next Monday, I have a test (7.5%)... for Actuarial Studies... and I very well know I can't catch up 1 month of lectures in one weekend, even if I regained total health... Especially when I've always been clueless in the hall...

Then the day after that, I have an Financial Accounting Quiz (10%)... double crap... i still haven't caught up with the lessons and such... trying to bridge the info i learnt about accounthing 3 yrs ago... not as easy at it seems

And what am I doing now? I'm writing, no... trying to write my critical analysis assignment, due on Tuesday, and also weighs 10 % for my final assessment. triple crap.

RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

Being Sick Sucks

I know the reason I got sick, so don't push it...

Monday~
For the third time in my whole life, I fainted... in the morning, after a sleepless night while brushing my teeth... Lying down on the bathroom floor felt good, actually, and I would just stay there, but I regained conciousness, thinking that it would be so embarrasing to be found like that, so I just got up, staggered back to my room, and collapsed on my bed...

By this time, I was sorta gasping for breath, and it hurt anywhere it can... especially my head and legs...

This happened about 7 AM in the morning, and after collapsing into my bed, I THINK i slept, for about an hour or so... But then I knew, that still needed food, which was why i got up the first place... So this time round, still with a major headache, I managed to trudge downstairs and grab some cereal... the house owner's wife was at the kitchen, so i managed to ask her for some panadol...

After muching a few spoonfuls of cereal, I took the panadol, and slept... till noon

Waking up at noon felt a whole lot better than what I experienced in the morning... the headache is still there, but a lot less.... my legs still ache, and quiver whenever i walk...

So I stayed home, and missed Econs and Actuarial Studies lecture :K

Had soup for lunch, noodles for dinner... hey- i didn't want to stay standing too long, mkay?

Then I slept...at 9 PM... Only person to notice my absence in lecture was Kris, but not surprising, so I even smsed him when the class started... I figured that if i can't even last walking to the bathroom and all, i may collapse anywhere on the way to class... He said that even if i made it to class, i'll probably collapse in the class itself xD

Tuesday~
Woke up feeling a lot better... Altho I awoke about 3 AM, with a throbbing head, took another round of panadols, and tried to sleep... In fact, I overslept, and woke up 45 minutes before my first class today...

At least, the headache is almost, but not gone, and i'm just stuck with a cold and cough... still sucks anyway

Went to my first lecture which is Managing Across Cultures... sat next to Diana from Germany, who's my partner in that course's tutorial... 3o minutes into the lecture, felt a big stomach ache.. grr... had to go to the toilet :K

Then after the lecture, which ended like 25 minutes early, found Kris sitting at the back, looking sick himself... turns out he got sick on monday night, due to food poisoning... yikes... no more fish and chips for either of us for awhile...

After our econs tutorial, we checked out the clinic in the uni, but unfortunately it's fully booked till thursday... gahhh...

Survived all my classes that day, and also had dinner with Fiony, another classmate in the Management class...

Tonight, dad also called, since i was asleep when he called yesterday... told me to not worry so much about the financial constraints, and that my health is priority... shazwi (econs classmate) also called me up to see if i'm ok, since my mom called his family in ttdi to get to him, if he knew my condition...

Wednesday~
Still sick with cough and cold.. hates it.. RAWR!

Also annoyed at Zaid at first, for doing things he shouldn't... It's been a rough week so far, for me and him, and i'm just tired of it...

End of Weekend

Anyhow, Week 3 is over... and I have a test on Week 5, yet not much studying done...

Today wasn't really a good day, at first... Felt a little sad for something that happened to a dear friend... Hope it gets settled.. (Stays optimistic about it) =)

So... today, I cooked rice and omelette for lunch and dinner, now that i know how to measure servings for one person... Couldn't find a small frying pan, tho... and had to use a HUGE one... so my omelette turned out pretty big xD

Oh well, it isn't as tasteful as i'd like it to be, but it's a start ;)

Stupid Online Quizzes ! xD

I tried this quiz, which I found from Nad's blog... About hidden talent... and the results I got...

You have a sexual hidden talent You have a sexual hidden talent. You might not look it but you are a dynamo in bed. Most of your lovers think that it is from years of practice, but really, you were just born with it. Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

WTH?? Don't know if that's good or bad =P *kicks online quizzes*

First Class DONE!

Finally, went to my first ballroom dance class... Met my classmate and partner Kris on the way there... he just finished jogging... eek xD

Anyway, we seemed like the first few to arrive there, aside from the teacher and probably some advance students or so...

More people came afterwards... Today, we did the basics for Waltz, Foxtrot, Tango and Quickwaltz(or something like that, i couldn't catch the names fast) :P

Initially, I felt pretty shy and sooo nervous, especially before the class... Then I felt even more shy, when I had my partner and I hold each other in that dance stance, or whatever u call it... My right hand and his left hand, my left hand on this arm/shoulder, and his right hand on my side or something... xD

But after starting to dance, I tried to ease myself, and things seems to get better :) Then we had to change partners a few times, and rotate about, so I got to know other guys as well, while holding each other close, and dancing together... hehehe

I think I sorta eased up... more than the beginning, at least xD till I partner with Kris again... he said i was too tense... I guess I was... hahaha, i don't know why, but he's the only guy i keep 'stepping' on, not so literal, but my foot keeps hitting his xD at least we're both wearing sneakers xD

Some of the guys that I partnered are fast learners... Some are clumsy, some are also shy... Some can lead pretty well... But I think, we all had a good first class and a funny thing in this class, is that the guys actually outnumbered the girls by one male xD

I met, guys from China, Malaysia (my senior in school's brother!!), Hong Kong and Indonesia...

After the dinner, I had dinner at a funny-named fast food joint with Kris, and we met our classmate, Muzi who's working there =) We are in the same tutorial group for Managing Across Cultures ;)

Then Kris kindly walked me back to where I'm staying, before he went back to his own place... At least we both stay in the same surburb (sp?), so it wasn't a far distance, unlike some friends in Randwick, it can be pretty far, and dangerous, especially at night...

Anyhow, I manage to enjoy myself in the dance class, and maybe next time, get to know more girls as well ;)

To Dance!!!

It's been finalized, I'll be leaning ballroom dancing!!! Wheee~!!!!

Only thing, is that I'll be wearing my sports shoes to the first class =D I am a beginner, so they can't expect me to know what I should be wearing, right? ^_^

Maybe I'll get something more appropriate after the first class... got lots to learn :)

And this is the guy who did the best job convincing me to dance~

I'm gonna dance~!

Sooo... lots of people managed to convince me :D (pokes Bram and Miraz)

and starting tomorrow, i'll be learning to do ballroom dancing! *dances*

only thing is that, i'll be wearing my sports shoes on the first class... hahaha... oh well

To Dance, or Not To Dance?

When I first took a look into the booklet on recreation courses and social sports, i was attracted by the dance/movement and martial arts section...

I wanted to dance, but I didn't know which course to consider... Choices include ballroom dancing, bellydance, classic ballet, combo dance, contemporary dance, hip hop funk, latin dance, street funk and a lot more! Of course, I didn't consider all the choices...

I'm actually interested in something like the ballroom dance, or latin dance, or something that is graceful... (I'm not saying I am) :P But it seems like a lot of fun...

I've done traditional dancing before, I also tried line dancing... And I want to try more!

So... currently I'm interested in doing ballroom dancing, and I know a guy who's also gonna take up that class... But I still feel kinda too shy to try it... Plus, I don't have the proper shoes/footwear... I only brought my sports shoes with me, to Australia...

So what do I do? Do I still enrol for the dancing, and worry about footwear after the first class, or what? From the response I get from some friends, on and offline, they tell me to dance... Only one person says no xD:

Lachlan says:
DONT do it!!!
Lachlan says:
NOOOO, DONT DO IT NAZZA, DONT DO IT!!!
Lachlan says:
PLEASE, JUST DONT DO IT!!!
Lachlan says:
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!
Lachlan says:
PLEASE, JUST LISTEN TO REASON
Lachlan says:
DONT DO IT
Lachlan sent 8/8/2006 4:03 PM:
NAZZA!!! DONT DO IT!!!
Lachlan sent 8/8/2006 4:03 PM:
BE SENSIBLE!!!
Lachlan sent 8/8/2006 4:04 PM:
DO KICK-BOXING INSTEAD OF DANCING!!!

This made me laugh so much when I got back from class, and find this message on my MSN xD

Bram did ballroom dancing too, and he learnt it just for his prom... but he enjoyed it...

Bram- says:
get dancing
Bram- says:
get sure to dance
Bram- says:
!!

First class is this Friday
So... What should I do?? xD *is shy*

I may instead, do latin dance :O and that'll start on thursday!!! Aaaaaah~!

http://www.retrodance.com.au/

The start of Week 3...

has started... The weekend was filled with some bad moments... But thankfully, Zaid, Lachlan and Scla helped cheered me up loads...

I still feel a lot of tension and pressure, tho, but I'm smiling more as I face them... It's not easy, but I really hope I can pull through my first semester here...

And still, a guy who bought second hand books from me is still yet to pay for them :K:K:K I've repeated this story to a few ppl a few times already, but to cut it short, his fickle-mindedness caused me to have two sets of a subject's text book for so long, and now that he finally has it, I still haven't received payment... oh well... now i know better

On another note, I want to take some recreation courses, and I'm thinking about kendo and ballroom dancing... I want to take kendo, but I'm still unsure about dancing xD I'm feeling too shy to do it :P

Anyway, I love my online community a lot, and I really hope one day, I'd be able to venture about the world, and meeting them... It's been a great pleasure so far...

Next in list to meet: Miraz & Jozz

Life @ UNSW

So... finally found time to start blogging again, now that I'm here, in Australia...

Not feeling to happy at the moment... Loneliness, and subjects overwhelming... Only time can tell, if things get better... Hopefully it does... I guess I should be optimistic about everything...

Things to do:
Understand Stochastic Models for Actuarial Applications...
Make more friends...
Find a new place to stay...
Work...
Join some extra classes... thinking of doing dancing (perhaps ballroom dancing) and kendo (sounds fun!)
Meet some good friends...

I have a new phone number, message/e-mail me to find out what it is...

Overview of first three weeks here... really overwhelming, as I'm straight into second year subjects... lots to catch up, and try finding friends... maybe join more societies...
The weather is very cold, for me at least, i don't care about you people who lives in colder countries telling me that this is not cold... you're not from malaysia, you're not experiencing the same transition as i am... so please, spare me that comparison...

Books here are damn expensive... have to spend about 400 AUD just for this semester's books and I'm only doing 4 subjects... At least I have a nice timetable...

Security is also an issue here... with the rise of petty crimes around Kingsford, the area I'm living in... And they seem to be targetting international students, as we heavily populate this area...

Other than that, things are nice...

Zaid was in Perth for awhile, seeing his brother off... Now he's back in US...

I met up with Lachlan and Dave, online friends of mine, plus a few of my old schoolmates, such as Wei Hon + bro, and Thiam Siang + bros... Bumped into another junior as well...

I forgot to take a photo with my meeting with Dave, but I do have a photo of me with Lachlan... We met up last saturday, and it was an awesome day.. .best day i had in Australia so far... As for Dave, I'll chase him with my camera some other time... no rush at all, since he's in the same uni as me, and is in fact, my senior there, altho i'm older... hahaha, i really took the long route to finish a degree, but from my work experience, i'm in no rush at all...

I'll be stalking you, Dave ;)