Uni, oh uni

Uni is hard... well, maybe not so, but to me, yeah... it's hard... this week, i realized that i just can't bring my study habits from malaysia... i have to change... i have to work harder...

Some people may know how laid back I was back in UiTM... how i always interact with the lecturer in class, clear up anything i don't understand... look at people's notes... how 'relaxed' i am...

But that won't work here... nope, it won't, and i just have to accept that and change =) I've already missed one test on purpose, and finally got the courage to approach my tutor... I'm always reluctant to approach people here, i don't know why, maybe it's just me being shy and scared, but it can't stay like this forever...

Tonight I was supposed to head to the city again, and stay over at mom's hotel... I know they're only here til Saturday, and that is approaching fast... but i can't help feeling that i'll lose a lot of time, to prepare for my microeconomics presentation next tuesday... if i go... i don't want to put myself in last week's position anymore... it's too nerve wrecking... i can't go through that anymore... so here i am, at home, with my microecons books on my desk, and me sketching demand and supply curves...

Time just passes by too quickly here, and I really need to start catching up, or i'll be left further behind... during my management class, i kinda listed how i felt at that time:-

alone, lagging behind, friendless, struggling, scared, nervous, worried, shy, unindependant, sad, sleepy, tense, sick, lazy, lethargic, lack of sleep, bored, homesick, unkempt, energyless, ashamed, low self-esteem

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